My Side~?

Turning saints into the sea.

2010-05-16T23:40:00.003+08:00

Of course, by all means.

take it all away.

don't look back.

the more we turn, the more we become unsure.

interestingly, the more we look into the future,

we're staring at the unsure.

blinking at its laughter.

killing off the fun,

i check my face, i check my sides,

i find, that i'm still alive.

i push for the glory,

i push it through,

i just hope one day, you'll see it in full.

A dark Night in Berlin

2010-05-09T14:47:00.002+08:00

move over, the rope tightens and strangles me even more,

giving me even less space to breathe,

each time your memory comes into my head.

i cringe in fear,

the same fear and grappled with me in yester years

as i pick myself up,

i tell myself to be strong, to hold on

to stand my ground.

to be somebody.

but yet, i know, whoever i am,

you'll never realise,

you'll never see beyond what is apparent.

you love taking things for granted,

but perhaps, the problem lies with me

and all my insecurities.

all my fears,

all my sorrow,

i feel so empty,

and yet, i know i'll never be full.

all i ask, is for you,

for you to notice me more than what i am.

to just reciprocate the same way i want you to.

but alas, you'll never see any of this.

you'll live your live, the same way you have for years,

doing what you want.

living by your rules.

you do things that you think will be good,

for me.

but i hope one day,

without me asking,

you do want i want you to do.

for yourself.

call me selfish,

call me a fool.

but in any case.

i know that its just you.

A hell of a Ride.

2010-04-19T00:55:00.002+08:00

My old friend, you've paid me yet another visit.

how long has it been? two years? almost.

and now, your little heart ripping tactic is coming back to haunt me.

it must be fun to see me like this,

distraut, confused and tired.

in fact, you were the cause of my nightmares.

behold, you come like a rat smelling cheese.

as soon as another angel comes to recieve me,

you'll be around the corner, to besiege me.

and now, one beautiful angel has once again descended.

and i SMELL your presence, your wretched stench fills the air all around.

your presence makes me fearful, of my past.

the fear does not consume me.

it merely poses an obstacle to my being.

another hurdle,

another chain,

that prevents me from being,

who i really am.

but of course, not that you will care.

you revel in my dispair

you laugh at my tears,

you spit in my triumphs

and kill off all joy.

OH, where would i be without you, committing the same mistakes.

in a very vague sense, i should be thanking you,

for protecting me all these years.

but please, stay away from me.

now.

By A Long Shot

2010-01-24T03:02:00.002+08:00

been ages since i wrote a single word on this text board.

i feel that i do really have a knack for getting into trouble.

funny isn't it? how the things you want never to happen somehow occurs.

i always feel right at home, comfortable, when i write.

no deadlines to meet,
no expectations to rise to,
no rebuttals.

Writing, a very death-like chore, keeps me alive.

i thrive upon the singular function that writing embodies.

i can say whatever i want, and the gossips cannot hear
i can express myself freely, from drugs to beer.
i can be the master of my universe,
but yet, my universe is my master.

it doesn't matter to me who reads this, because at the end of the day, gossips will have a way.

from putting people down,
to hanging themselves up.

Let me express my views on gossipers.

In today's world, it is rather difficult NOT to be a gossip. The business of others always has a place on the tongues of those who simply cannot mind their own. In my own experience, gossips always find out what they want. They simply cannot be kept in the dark. They hunger to know about the business of others, thrive upon the faults.

I have to admit though, i enjoy my fair share of gossip. However, there are those whose mouths open and close with the names of their victims, those are the gossips who have to be reminded, that taming a tiger is easier than taming a tongue.

They usually have little friends, but a group of followers, who they themselves love to listen to gossip. To them, everything is a popularity contest. They do not believe in the systems that mankind has put in place. Enough about them.

To ignore these people, that is the remedy.

More importantly, i believe, is to savour the chances that come by. Be tolerant of the people around you, more importantly, be tolerable.

Chances that are missed are hardly ever going to come back.

the loss of it will sting your heart, as it has already stung before.

be a listener, not the listened to. Understand what people are going through, speak less.

Don't let what past perceptions of you hinder you.

change, become the very difference you want to see happening in the lives around you.

There will always be another chance, but it will not be the same one as before.

don't let it slip pass,

don't let it fly by,

don't leave it behind.

if everyone took their chances, then we can all begin to be certain.

To turn back on the path so far.

2009-09-17T23:47:00.005+08:00

Remembering the past year, i cannot recall the turning points anymore,
I cannot remember the wrongs, the triumphs, the falls, the sorrow, the redemptions, the pain.
Each day, i live as a lifeless being, stepping on the ground with total deceit.
I am lying to myself,
I am a pathetic excuse for what you'd call a life.

Taking a transended view, i see the issue.
it is not that i am living,
but i am being lived.

i have no control over what i wish to do
those around me, as my pilot crew.
when i need help, i turn to who?

i have but no one, but only a few,
who have stood by me, i know who
and one of them stands out, like the morning dew.

but as everyone forgets the morning dew,
i remain, oblivious to you.

i know you love me,
i know you exist,
i know you are by by me
i know you saved the crisis

but yet,
i feel,
i have lost your touch,
your oh so wonderful delirious tug.

But, looking back at that all that i have done,
i now see, it is nothing but dust.

Amid the ash, that clouds the sky,
i can see you, but you seem so high.

i reach for you, but my pilot crew speaks
"stay on the ground,on own your feet"
don't look up,
they cry, in obvious deceit.

i feel so much like Midas, who longs for human touch,
all i ask for, is your holy crux.

the same one that found me, in the winter of 06'
i have lost it, three years ahead,
i have found beauty, in destruction instead.

I know much, but i do not feel,
I have lost, the ability to heal
the magical wonders that you reveal,
I see everything, but i cannot see you.

as the days of autumn approaches mid,
far sight,i speak, "the winter, that follows it."

this time i ask, for a blessed autumn
and in return, i will find, the same winter

of which you have induced.

in my mind and in my soul.

it is by faith that i carry on,
it is the pursuit of you that i keep moving on
it is the sight of you, that keeps me up
it is the scent of you, that brings me around
it is the fabric of you, that clothes me
it is the mercy of you, that holds me
it is the power of you, that heals me
it is the glory of you, that survives me.

i am you, i am your being,
you are me, you are in me.

i long for your return into my life,
i seek your touch as my divine guide.

as i look to the sky,
i see the eagle,
in full flight,
but with a serpent under its fly.

i see the empowerment of the eagle,
over the snake,
and i all i need now,
is to see thy face.

In Jesus's name i pray.

(amen)

to return from delirium

2009-06-06T23:17:00.002+08:00

i'm up at 4.43 am. Staring at where i have started before.

Reflection has brought my life back on track. It seems that most things pass pretty easily and that works count for nothing, unless they have an impact.

I really miss the holidays, nothing just the June one, but the Post O level holidays as well. The carefree lifestyle was much more desirable, and the jobs that came with it is so much easier than A levels.

But at this point of time, after a long conversation with Dorra, Iwanna touch on a few issues.

Firstly, the idea of denial.

Denial is a very tough aspect of the Human Condition to put a finger on. It can be seen as an escape route, or an enclosure. Both of these definitions are similar. They provide an alternative to reality. Many a times, almost everyone, including myself, employs some form of denial. Some call it "the silver lining" or "the optimisitic view". I believe that the best form of interpretation of denial is the type employed by lovers; the idea that things are never what they seem to be.

Of course, in many instances, things are never what they seem to be. Which then raises a problem. WHY ARE THINGS EVER WHAT THEY SEEM TO BE? This probably can be attributed to the ego of each person, that causes the true feelings of each individual not to be expressed fully. This in turn, causes the perception of the situation to be either blurred or full of holes. This flawed perception is then taken as the platform by lovers to work with, resulting in flawed results. HOWEVER, after the initial stage of flawed results, the true feelings of each individual then surfaces and things become better, at the very essential core.

Therefore, it is important be be clear about assumptions and arguments from the start. So that each perception can be as clear as it can be.

Back to denial, denial is employed by a whole range of people, everyone employs denial once in a while. However, upon close reflection, denial disintegrates, and the core essence of each person is revealed, where every thing is simple and satisfiable. Questions like, ":why am i doing this?","what will i get out of it?","is the result what i want?" helps to reveal the core essence of each person.

My own life experience has allowed me to see that actually, i have been living in Denial, i fully know what i am doing is not what i want, and the results obviously flawed. Yet, i indulge in everything of that sort.

I'm tired. Continue next time.

A Long Long Long While

2009-03-22T11:07:00.003+08:00

ah, it seems that i have taken too long a break from the cyber world, living away from the computer, hanging on to my life.

in a group, inevitably, there are those who continually do the exact opposite, or try to advise those they think are wrong, not knowing that they themselves are flawed.

oh, forgive and forget

anyways, there are other stuffs that bug me, for example, a little snug bee that won't leave me, buzzing and whizzing all over the place, making sure i don't do what's out of place.

a clear liquid, its a see-through. Fire-water that's what its called.
as much as i detest fire, but i can't seem to hate the water.
the feeling that i get when i take it, akin to seeing a whirlwind, straight lines, seem out of place, the out of this world, is the norm. the norm has long been forgotten.

ahh, what state have i fallen into, perhaps society has had too much of an influence over me.

a hermit, thats what i think i should be.

Junior College

2009-02-07T01:37:00.002+08:00

hello PEOPLE! I'm officially a Catholic Junior College student! HAHA

CJC is pretty fun and cool, considering that the orientation was pretty massive and extremely well planned.

what more can i say?

a scene that i never expected,
right now i seem so deluded,
give me a chance to follow you
and you'll see why i need to.

if only i could reveal what my heart locks down,
my mind rages war with my soul,
i cannot determine what i want,
only to seek and find what i think is right.

Clean and Friendly

2009-01-27T13:59:00.002+08:00

the piano organ rings, only two things
a black box in the hall or a white dress calls.

think about it, what would it seem?
a paulbearer or a wedding seen?

sigh, but today you wear both, and i hold thy hand
a chill heads down my spine as i see you smiling in that can..

if only everything was simple, without complications.
ah, i wouldn't think so much if it wasn't for words.
little collections of alphabets that mean so much.
please use them wisely.

geeee

2008-12-03T13:06:00.002+08:00

Its been two weeks since i Left Singapore for china. During the two weeks, i've gotta say there's no place like home. So, tonight, i will board a plane home bound, to pick up where i've left off.

Beijing, a city of grand proportions.
Tianjin, where i visited an authentic Chinese Christian church.
Chengde, where the blistering cold coupled with the imperial housing complex showed me perfect symmetry
Xiamen, a place closer to home.

Indeed, as it has been said, China has changed alot; gone are the days of utopian ideals of communist equality, with the changes brought forth by Deng XiaoPing, China has become a fortress in the capitalist world. In another 2 decades or so, China will spearhead capitalism into the next stage, along with its population, the Chinese will march as one; Strong, united, determined and seemingly unstoppable. A power that even the mighty US will not be able to easily ignore.

In China, its most valuable asset is not its land, not its industry, not its technology, not its Soviet Derived military prowress, but its foundation and its people.

a foundation of 5000 years, and a population of mass proportions.

what will happen?

we're witnessing possibly the most exciting story history has to offer.

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out of all that, i've lost one thing dear to me, the

United World College Scholarship Application.

A journey that started in March,
pass the workshop that saw womens rights clinch top spot,
join the Women Rights group that has gone thus far,
enter the speech contest that gave me top 6,
left the group, that turned to politics and jealousy
opened my mind to the world of ideals
the nights that last so long.
a call on a night that has long passed.
an email that showed me what joy
a hour early, a blue suit, the interview that showed me what's good.
and now i sit, in this room, looking at that email, that presented no good.

it is with a heavy heart, that i write this down, that i have been turned down. for i am not worthy of the idealistic world of the UWC, i can only stand, alone staring at my feet.

what a journey, so long and time.

started in march and ending in time, during the final days of november, in the bistering cold, through the roller coaster, that is my O's

i keep my promise, the only one i have, to hold my head high, staring at the sky.

good bye.

List

2008-09-30T00:02:00.003+08:00

Everything - Micheal Buble

Celebration - Kool and the Gang

Fall For You - Second Hand Serenade

Wonderwall - Oasis

The Remedy(I Won't Worry) - Jason Mraz

Can't take my eyes off of you. - Frankie Valli

a bunch of cool songs... hee hee

2008-09-23T19:09:00.002+08:00

WELCOME TO

The Strangely Simple and Curious Incident of The Make-shift Tent.

Mark was looking around,
when he heard a sound.

so strange, so weird, that it the pancake
almost slipped out of his mouth.

He looked around, hoping to catch a glimpse,
perhaps even a silly little rabbit, that was having a sniff.

oh, but he would not get that chance, no he wont, as the sweat massed up in his armpits, the smell was strong.

he shouted,"Come out here, or get back where you belong!"

a shuffle in the bush, a howl he heard,

now mark was in trouble, yes he was, he'd almost wish he'd never have called.

a paw came out, then the head,

he closed his eyes, for he would not want to see what more lay ahead.

the wolf circled mark, its eyes fixed upon him, surely now, the beast would eat him.

but mark did something really, stupid.

he kicked dirt at the wolf.

bad mistake mark, cos in the end, you never lived to tell about the wolf.

lol, that's super retarded,

haha anyways, its been quite sometime. i realised that i've always been running away from stuff. like, problems and bad results.

i'll just go do my own things and try to forget about it. sounds childish doesn't it?

it's really time i learnt to move on,

i'm gonna start facing stuff and finishing stuff, and i'm gonna go start studying!

hee hee!bye!

Emo-ness

2008-09-16T21:31:00.009+08:00

One time of greatness

2008-09-12T22:58:00.002+08:00

I'm listening to Queen right now.

man.. they are AMAZING!

its true when they say that good bands last for one lifetime.

Good music lasts for eternity.

Freddie Mercury.
Brian May.
Roger Taylor.
John Deacon.

Brillian Musicians. Brilliant.

Clarinet Choir

2008-09-10T21:47:00.002+08:00

the time was not right,
but i stood against the fight,
not alone, but holding on tight,
on to the flag, the little glowing light.

Of stars and colours
Of stripes and might.

and to believe that i actually missed you!
wow, i wonder if the feeling was a TAD bit mutual.
i guess i've once against invested in the wrong person.
i don't see it as a mistake,
its just something i shouldn't have done.

mistakes are meant to be made, and meant to be learnt from.
but a mistake arising from the person's personality...
how would you know it was a mistake?

until you've been fooled?

i guess im the biggest fool,
court jesters get laughed at by men.
i get laughed at by LIFE.
having made the same mistake TWICE

playing the bull-fight, just like the fickle Carmen.
the result just the same.
he thought of the best, and got fooled,
just like the rest.

i don't know whether i've gotten the same end.
i seriously don't want to believe what i've heard.

i don't want to lose a friend.

can i hear it from you?
please?

oh, but...... Then again...

perhaps, you would even care how i feel.
all you'd do, is.......

i don't even know what you'd do.

WEEKEND

2008-09-06T00:02:00.003+08:00

haha, i've been sleeping at 3 the past few nights, wednesday night/thursday morning, i was on the phone till 3 and.....

On thursday night/friday morning i was out till late, haha, not enough sleep la, and....

both days i had exams.

POA on thursday, which is a sure fail.

English Literature today, which wasnt too bad.... Paper 1 was alright, but Paper 2 was kinda screwed up, cos i didnt really read "Off Centre".

oh wells.

anyways, i was at vivo just now and you will never believe what i saw...

Dinesh and i like bloody saw a couple smooching and the girl giving a HANDJOB to the guy! im serious!

it was like at the Sky Garden/Park thingy, but it was at night.

you could see her hand like, moving his Penis and all sia.. what the...

so, anyways, after that er..... EVENT? Dinesh and I decided to go on a English Accent Night.

we were both quite good at it actually, serious!

haha, we talked alot on the way back, and missed the 53 bus once, haha.

and so, now im home....

Oh, before i forget!

To : Sasi

To the farthest extent,
i will always be behind you.
never worry when you need an ear,
for you know I'm always here.
though i may seem naggy and Gayish(=D)
you know that i trust mean what i say.
and i say that i care.

Do what you need to do,
complete the journey.
seize the day,
not by the time,
but by its neck.
work to ends, find the edge,
for it is on the edge, that we truly find who we are.

Hey Sasi! it was greeeeeaaaat meeting again. We'll do this more often yeah? Meeting up and hanging out and all.

hee hee!

OFF HIATUS

2008-08-29T02:28:00.002+08:00

its, 2.35am and its teacher's day.

I've got, "inn of the sixth happiness" ringing in my ears

gosh, i wish the day would end a little faster, a little quicker.

i kinda cannot wait for my prelims to end, then my O's.

though i know that O's are really important, sometimes i think we might be blinded by the worldliness of everything around us. i just want to enter a junior college that doesn't have any hiccups in it.

hiccups....

today is the 29th of August.

29
29
29
29
29
29

it WOULD HAVE meant alot to me actually, HAHA.

but as they say, all things, no matter good nor bad, come to an end.

somehow, events passed creep into my thoughts.

HOW?
TRUE?
WHY?

well, i guess i'm just feeling a tad bit sleepy-ish. its at about this time that i become very wary of my thoughts.

i reflect upon things unsettled, things unsolved.

give me a dime, i'll give you change.
give me the time, i'll tell you a story of a lifetime.

yes yes, a brilliant story.

one of struggle, of pain, of banes, of hiding under in shame.

the struggle in knowing who to trust.

the pain of remembering everything all over again.

the bane of knowing i'll always be misunderstood

the shame of everyone knowing who was under my hood.

i really didnt imagine myself like that.

i seriously dont.

its quite contradictory actually.

i try my best to look happy all the time.
i do my best to seem happy all the time.
but at times when i'm on my own.
i dont remember why i smile.
why i cheer
why i take my hat off.

i never tell anyone about this,
most of my issues that are similar,
are actually written out.
on pages and pages of paper.

i just cannot seem to capture my sorrow when someone is around.

will someone please help me.....

and please be the person with a solution.

NOT JUST A WANT TO HELP. please...

LOL

2008-08-25T22:14:00.004+08:00

Abigail.
i will never love you chin hong. you know why? because i find you damn irritating and ugly and annoying so get lost dun talk to me again.

25 Aug 08 21:3225

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FATHER.
SHUT UP CHIN HONG I KNOW YOU'RE UGLY LIKE ME . SO SHUT UP UGLY PEOPLE UNITE SAMZY ALSO UGLY LIKE ME

25 Aug 08 21:32

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MOTHER.
CHIN HONGI REGRTTED GIVING BIRTH TO A UGLY BASTARD LIKE YOU . WHY ARE YOU SO UGLY? AND WHY 'VE YOU GOT NO FRIENDS?
25 Aug 08 21:31

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TOMMY
UGLY BASTARD

25 Aug 08 21:31

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SAMZY
UGLY UGLY! : )
25 Aug 08 21:30

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JOHNNY
UGLY
25 Aug 08 21:30

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sammy
freaking backstabber. back stab only. don't come and act english all on your blog lah freaking bapo freaking loner no friends stupid loser.
25 Aug 08 21:30

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Jeremy.
dun act big man. fucking ugly bastard small eye big mouth look like some fucking clown . don't act big and i know a secret you've got no friends at all. so fuck off dun act big

25 Aug 08 21:28

218.186.9.1

OKAY............ I think you guys get the point;

-i'm ugly,

-irritating,

-i write english,

-my mother regrets giving birth to me,

-my dad is ugly,

-i have small eyes,

-big mouth,

-i've got no friends,

-look like a clown,

-backstab.

OKAY........ cool cool. =)

LAST ONE.

2008-08-12T19:01:00.004+08:00

You leave me speechless,
you pump me up.
you give me passion,
you send me up.

yes, i am falling in love with you,
and if only i could tell you.
you beauty of it all,
incomprehensible.
the imagery of it,
comes from no one's straw.

when i'm down, i just turn to you,
you're always there and i smile at your sound.
i hope one day to be able to hold you in my hand,
just as you have held me by my heart.

i fantasize about the wonderful things i hold dear,
all the good times and bad times that i seer,
the times you made me cry, and the times i up for joy.
you break many hearts, and revived mine.

if only i could turn back time,
i would experience it all again,
the pain, the glory and perhaps even the shame

i would relieve in the fighting,
and beam in the peace,
i will the strike the bell with lighting,
and put you to sleep with a kiss.

yes i would, i remember it all,
even that very first call.
who would have though that we'd go so far,
three years, a time nothing has on par.

you have enchanted my soul,
you have shown me what's "never too old'
you've made many famous,
you've made many shames.
you've held the world by the ear,
and yet we all can't see you.

of the roses that blossom,
its flowers will not compare to you,
like the first day of autumn,
the falling leaves and golden hues,
of brilliance, and of doom,
of bravery and of eerie-ness,
of patriotism and of flags,
of the colours and the stags.

my love, a beautiful one,
you have shaped my life,
i'd never imagine,
the time you held back.

Freak-ass shit!

2008-08-03T16:48:00.002+08:00

haha, i'm going on a Haitus right now, nothing much to post about anyways, nothing i want you guys to know anyway.

Fanstastic Weekend

2008-07-21T19:55:00.003+08:00

i truly love this weekend, it was truly blessed and beautiful.

Thursday

Saint Gabriel's Secondary School Symphonic Band Presented

Dreamscapes

it was beautiful, although i had to agree that we didnt play up to the standard set up by the previous year's RESONANCE, in which we played two university level pieces, Danse Bacchanale and Miss Saigon Overture.

Every year has its own surprises and i'm glad that we had this year's concert, because we really bonded after that, hugs were seen backstage during the interval, gifts were distributed, love was exchanged. LOVE

haha, we did well. yes we did. Glory to EXODUS!

EXtra
Ordinarily
Dedicated &
United in
Spirit

Friday

woke up at 11, didnt report for school. haha!

met up with a friend and had lunch, HAPPY BIRTHDAY FRIEND!

from there after, it was down to East Coast Park for Sarah's birthday. Hope you like what i got you! hee hee. we had truckloads of fun at the beach and we really enjoyed ourselves! haha, reached home and dunno what time. haha!

SATURDAY

had tuition and went down to church, afterwhich Dexter, Ben, Sarah, Abigail, Jewel, Leslie and i proceed to dinner and on to the PL musical! Which, might i add, its Extremely well done, Bravo to Suzanne Choo and Adeline Loh. we headed for supper and down home! haha

Abigail.... =D! i knew it la!

haha, alright enough. i'll stop here! BYE!

Dvorak's Carnival Overture is good, go check it out.

At last.

2008-07-03T23:02:00.003+08:00

ah..... at last, i can remember you without flinching. haha

anyways, i was bathing today when i had a sudden revelation.

You cannot stop people from saying what they want or what they want to do. If they said something that bothered you or did something that bothered you and you cannot do anything about it, then GET ON WITH LIFE!

true isnt it?

For example, someone says that i am a flirt, i cannot stop him from saying it, since he has already done so. but there is something that i can do, i can find out why he considers me a flirt and if it is reasonable, i'll change for the better.

Another example, a friend goes around to talk bad about me to others. obviously i cannot do anything about it. Going to confront him would not be the best idea would it? After all, if he could talk bad about me, then i guess he must really dislike me. Even if i give him all that he wanted, he would not be satisfied, much less change his mindset. Therefore, i should watch what i do and carry on with my life, and try not too bother too much about it.

well, i think that if many people might view my present life as quite messed up, (you know who you people are) and thanks for help me through, but seriously, i dont consider my life as unfortunate or terribly messed up.

in fact, as time passed, i see everything as a wonderful life experience.

I gain a new lesson from these special experiences, enhancing my social-awareness skills, letting me know what not to do and making sure i do not do it again.

and knowing that somethings, no matter how terrible it is, something comes out good.

ah...................

i like that feeling. yes i do.

disappointment in literacy.

2008-06-30T02:21:00.003+08:00

ah, how foolish the boy was, to have thought that everything was going to be simple.

but he forgot all past experiences and the eccentric nature of humans.

having done so much, he sought, a little form of gratitude, but all he found, was not even a simple thank you. in fact, he was shocked by the words, "what have you done?"

thinking back, perhaps what he has done was really nothing. perhaps... that's what the boy would like to believe, that it actually amounted to something.

but he has not forgotten the joy, the joys of times past and now perhaps forgotten by others. he cherishes all that he has embraced, and holds them close to his bosom. not letting a little bit of any of it fade away.

if only the other could realise his intentions. i do not blame the boy for his foolishness.

how could anyone blame him? he wanted the other to feel special and he goes out of his way, sacrificing means and time, to put colour into her life, to see the other smile, through the way he only knows how.

and yet, the other never realises it. perhaps, the other sees it as...

Normal for the boy to do such things.

but is it normal for someone to continue to always try to make someone else feel : special, blessed, happy, top of the world?

Perhaps he was guided by different signs,

sometimes its, " come on =) " , other times its " get lost "

and he feels all, confused.

one mistake little boy, the most painful part about love,

no one asked you to do it for the other.

you only have yourself to blame.

good bye little boy... i think I'll miss you as much as I'll miss alekx.

Alekx left for Australia this evening, I'll be missing her a lot, ah... yes, I'll miss her a whole lot. cant bear the wait till December!

No body knows

2008-06-21T13:33:00.002+08:00

Listening to "stand by me" by Oasis right now.

Today's Topic.

The Meaning of LIFE.

Life, is based on-----

haha, just joking.

lets talk about mail.

Mail has been an integral part of our lives since the 1950s. Right after the war, most phone lines were destroyed but people had to find a way to communicate between long distances, and turned to mail instead.

it was during that time that snail-mail's unshaken foundation was set.

up to today, even though Fax machines, the Internet, Phone lines are much faster than snail mail, snail mail is still widely used today, even in government sectors. The reason for its popularity in the government sector is because of security.

Fax machines, the Internet, Phone lines can be easily tapped-into by a foreign subject. This is because the above facilities are based on wave-lines. These waves can be received by almost any electrical board, and thats the reason why you seem to hear fuzzy or buzzing noises near electrical appliances at times. If the electrical board was well-tuned to received and INTERPRET the waves, then the information would be accessed by foreign subjects EASILY, without letting the Original Receiver and Sender know that the information was being tapped into. This does not allow security at all.

Taking a look at letters and envelopes, we know that the information was accessed if we see that the letter or envelope was opened or tampered with. Each Official letter that holds confidential information has a bar-code, this practise is not only used in government sectors, but in big companies as well. Once the recipient recieves the letter, the recipient will find a way to inform the Sender about the letter and repeat the bar-code, and thus checking whether the letter was the original authentic one.

this practise helps to counter one big defect of snail-mail. The Letter holding the information could have been opened and the letter replaced, thus making the tampered letter seem as if it was the original, however, the replaced letter doesnt not have the specific bar-code, and thus, the recipient will know that the letter was tampered with.

the recipient can then track down the route in which the letter took before reaching its destination and find wout what happened to the letter. This service is made available by the post office.

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cool isnt it? im quite pleased with all that.. simply because it was all part of memory work.

oh, by the way, i have photographic memory, which means i remember things through pictures, including written articles. haha

see ya.

hello

2008-06-18T20:46:00.002+08:00

I've linked Ryan's blog! you have to read it man, its nice!

alright, BAND CAMP!

it was quite tiring actually, intensive training, tiresome....

mornings were mostly sectionals followed by practice and lunch.

after lunch it was main band practice again till dinner, afterwhich, it was main band practice again.

as you can see, it is VERY intensive.

after the night's band practice, it was supper, shower time and lights out.

the next day it would be the same thing.

playing the trumpet over and over again is no joke.

especially if you're screaming high notes all the time.

but i have to admit something good, it did train up my endurance. hopefully my endurance stays. heh!

alright. damn tired right now. see ya!

Humanity

2008-06-15T15:10:00.005+08:00

What does being human really mean?

Our true likes are shown in the most terrible of times. Oh we can all be so Noble.

When a woman cuts your queue en route up an escalator in a train station, you frown and think of 101 ways to make her pay back. However, when the train station is threatened by a Bomb-threat, everyone helps each other to get out of the station quickly, letting the women and children go up the escalator first, not caring whether she cuts your queue.

Of course there are always those who would scurry up and not care about anyone else, pushing and shoving their way through. Believe me when i say the next sentence; Given the Chance again, They will not do the same.

Why is it that we cannot be so generous when in times of peace?

Simple, our culture tells us that getting there first is good.

First place is good, getting to the finish line first is good. NOBODY remembers Second place.

how many first places can there be? only one... and this, continually chasing of first place, breeds the selfish thinking of, all for me.

and this results in : I COME FIRST.

I MUST GO AHEAD OF THE PERSON UP THAT ESCALATOR SO THAT I CAN REACH THERE FIRST.

FIRST, FIRST, FIRST.

afterall, it's always said, nice guys finish last.

so, those who keep gunning for first place..... hm...

is this what you are? Selfish?

You are only one person in this world.

1 / 6 BILLION people....

might as well say its nothing.

but if you care for your community, letting others go first, caring for others.

your not only one person, but ONE COMMUNITY.

like the community of Chinese people around the world....

sure beats 1 / 6 billion.

if you lookout for one another.... others will lookout for you.

that, Comradeship.... sure beats anything that First Place can give you.

First Place gives us rewards. but can these rewards buy the loyalty, trust, love, concern and selflessness that comradeship gives?

i highly doubt it.

Anyway? What's so bad about being in second place?

LITERATURE

2008-06-03T19:34:00.003+08:00

hello everyone!

TODAY IS, 06/06/08, tuesday.

woke up early to go play soccer with Gerard, Yuan Qing, Pravin, Danial and Shad. The six of us met at around, 10? so we played for about an hour.

i'm actually pretty pleased with my soccer. I'm running alot more and i'm a little bit quicker than i used to be.Shooting Accuracy is still a major problem though, gotta work on it when i have time.

anyways, we left at about, 11.20? We had to attend a literature workshop at marina boulevard, with starts at 12! but we got on to the bus "107" at 12 la! so like, super late, most of us slacked during the journey, with me sleeping on the trip! hee hee.

oh yeah, we played soccer right? so i was wearing this pair of shorts la, but i didnt wanna change out of it, so i went to the CBD in SHORTS, i'll post a picture next time.

back to the story. we went for the lit thingy and all and we left. On the way out, the place was filled with students, so much so that the lifts were overcrowded.

so anyways, while i was waiting for a lift, one came by.... but! it was totally crowded. haha, the door opened but none of us went in. But of course, true to myself, i tried to be an idoit, haha i know that i the lift was already going down, but i pretended to go in and all la. but it was so obvious i was pretending, being a clown all, so i made all the people in the lift laugh, and they were all waving to me all.

haha! and i got someone's name too! perhaps a new friend! heh!

ah.. to lazy to write everything, so. see ya!

POST no.110!

2008-05-29T19:06:00.008+08:00

A montage, for my 110th post.

Its been a long way coming all the way to 110!~ Considering the fact that i moan when ever i see the dishes, Laziness Personified was what a family friend always called me.

i feel a little proud of myself now, yep.

but to tell you the truth, i havent been feeling so good lately, hmm, thinking of alot of bad times i guess.

well, its the holidays now, even though i have to go for school everyday. haha!

alrighty lets start!

i cant get the pictures to become straight tho, so flip your heads to the side!

Some Japanese Guy who was cold

Probably Asia's best known Band Specialist! Tiosho Akiyama!

Disneyland! some random person who agreed to a photo with me! =)

For a moment, i thought i was fighting Davy Jones, when i remembered, it was Tokyo disneyland!

this was taken before the Japanese Philharmonic Orchestra performance, in which, almost everyone slept.. =)

i was thinking of surrendering to a retarded guy, who was not wearing the awesome hat.

all that i bought from japan!

my favourite picture of the trip, thats, Me, Ben Fang and Jing Xuan

a cool temple at japan, its damn big-ass, really majestic

sunset by the Tokyo Horizon

Madam Jamilah, together with me and marvin, before leaving japan for singapore

the famous Japanese landscapes that we see in shows! although the fallen leaves look like a mess, it actually quite clean there! it fell, er, neatly?

cool car huh? japan is full of weird innovations that capture the attention of the public.

thats when i was at mount FUJI! cool huh? the clouds are like hugging the mountains!

thats the japanese band we exchanged with, they were awesome, seriously!

Resonance, 2007 concert, my trumpet looks cool huh?

thats the GOLD WINNING BATCH of band members

me and the trombonists, aloysius and jingxuan, btw, jingxuan scored 8 points la!

somethings we do in the band......

nothing much, the picture explains everything!

thats garrett and me! wierd face!

Story

2008-05-21T20:25:00.002+08:00

today was quite a nice day!

after school, me and Gerwyn headed down to pass his cousin something, actually, his chinese composition that was awarded 31/50. his chinese isnt that bad!

so, after the wonderful conversation between his cousin and i, me and Gerwyn left the place, he went for his tuition and i went for mine.

CHINESE TUITION, my chinese has become terrible too, retarded la. but chinese lesson was as usual, with a the nonsense i put up.

anyway, after lesson, i headed down to Kovan, for a little dinner, it was there that i saw a lesbian couple, dont mind me, but im okay with lesbians but i thought of something cool,

WHAT IF A GUY COULD SOMEHOW BREAK THEM UP?

it was there that i decided that i'd write a modern day love-story, about a lesbian couple and a man. cool?

hopefully it would be good enough for a book company to buy and publish it! haha!

see ya!

resonating bells

2008-05-20T21:30:00.002+08:00

I'm sure alot of have heard about the boy passed away in my school.

from what i have heard, he was a really cheerful boy, and i am quite stunned by the fact that something like that happened so close to me.

he came from a single parent family, where his mother looked after him. and i feel that im really blessed by God to give me such a wonderful family, for without them, im sure that i'd be in a state that i cannot describe, after all, in life, you can only count on your family because even you bestest friends can forsake you at times when you need them the most.

So i pray that God will grant him a place in heaven, and that the prayers of the whole school can help carry a part of the burden the family carries on their backs.

Today, there was band prac, and we played pretty badly, i feel that my tactic of DSAing into JC might be slipping away, i totally suck right now, im like 55% of what i was during concert last year. crap la, but afterall, i changed my mouthpiece, and it makes me feel like changing back to the old one la. to get better.

Gonna try playing Carnival of Venice as my entry piece, so i hope that would be good enough.

Chinese O's are less than 6 days away. with my cloze passage like shit right now, its gonna be hard to get that A.

i pray that by doing my best, god will do the rest.

PL MUSICAL coming up, im expecting quite alot actually, after all the "good things" i've heard about the SUPER HOT K****.

yep. oh and today, while i was at a bubble tea shop, i thought that there was this one super hot(cannot tell you which school)girl, becasue she looked awesome by the side of the face, but when she turned around, she was just a plain jane. yep.

hmm, i know im damn superficial, but too bad i guess! HAHAHA

2008-05-12T00:12:00.003+08:00

i know that i've learnt something new, Patience.

Patience is definitely a virtue, but i don't want to be waiting all my life.

if PAtience is a virtue, what's PAin?

perhaps pain is just a period that we all go through, be it physical or emtional, psychological or Mental. It's all something we want to avoid, however, pain, is unavoidable, this because..... pain is caused by outside factors; other people, non-living things(tripping over something) and other people's actions.

therefore, its is quite unlikely that one is able to avoid pain. once we are in pain, what do we do?

for me, whenever i play soccer and i get knocked, i just play along with the pain, because once im in the game, i dont remember any pain. i just forget the pain, i let my mind mask the pain.

but it doesnt go away, unless i seek treatment.

however, even physio-es tell me that i have to wait for my body to do the work, medicine and massages only helps, doesnt cure. i have to wait

waiting = having patience.

as the old saying goes

" time heals all wounds "

My advice to people in any sort of pain; to always be patient, simply because the pain will have to go away, or you will leave the pain, in which i mean, you die, pulling yourself away from the torment.

Even if something comes along to open up your wound, like a knife, dont worry.

the knife will never penetrate as deep as the first cut.

so, just keep waiting and do your normal stuff, after all, we can live till we are at least 65 and above!

thats alot of waiting.. really. haha!

BTW, i think my 10 jersy just got approved, i'll be getting it soon!

3 in 1!

2008-05-10T14:03:00.004+08:00

lets go!!!

First up, my mid-years are totally over! so thats good!~ i think i did quite well, for everything except for POA, this might be the best results i'm getting back since... sec 1? haha!

Secondly, i've finally got my pictures from my secret place! actually not mine, but its shared, but i opened the door to the place so.... i found it?, not really a door though..... more of a latch..

After you climb up the latch.. this is it..

1.

Here's another look at it.

2.

and the breath-taking view.......

5.

cool huh?

yep, thats actually the CBD in the picture but my camera isnt that good, but still.. the view!~~

oh yeah, the third thing, yesterday, after the last paper, i went to play soccer, while i was playing.. i got knocked in my toe by Sanjay... and its like, fractured? or smth la, so i went to the chinese physician this morning..... and guess what???

although its only my toe, i have no idea why my whole foot is being wrapped up, more mummified...? but looks cool doesnt it? gives me a " i get rough at times" look. not only that it add to my "macho-ness" but also i get sympathatic looks from people! HAHAHA!!!!

allow me to tell you what happened in the room....

the physician lady was like, pushing here and there, asking which part of my toe was hurting, and it turns out, where ever she pushed... it hurt. haha!

so he got her TRUSTY NEEDLES OUT, and started to PIERCE MY TOE!!!

She got all the most painful points la!!!!!!

i was lying there making "oumppp" and "ahh" noises.

then she got the really painful point/part. and i was SCREAMINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!

really screaming la. as in, the pain was like, have a searing hot lid pressed down on my toe.

but i cant describe the pain too much though... but its definitely sharp and really painful!!!!!

once i left the treatment room....., i got stares from everyone, esp, one lady who had a swollen ankle..... HAHAHAHA

man.. and i've gotta go back on monday. scary man... im have half a mind to skip the treatment....

haha! Imagine me, a soccer player and 16 year old, scared of needles!

but i guess like, health is the most important la. i dont wanna risk my passion for amateur soccer over a few needles.

HAHAH! SEE YA

monday!

2008-05-05T21:28:00.003+08:00

hello everyone!

im going to die for POA, but im glad i did it to the best of my abilities! to me i think thats all that matters right now, to do the best i can and leave the rest to God.

my History wasnt so bad, hoping to get a A for SS and History.

anyways, my cut on my lip hasnt healed yet, i think its becoming an ulcer.

haha! today,when i woke up my left hip was damn sore, and like, my right leg/foot area was kinda painful too.

i think that a lack of sleep causes people to get cranky, just like i was in the morning.

anyways, listening to "indescribable", By Chris Tomlin.

awesome song, praise God!

Those times were nice, it was as if i was taken out of my usual life for a moment to experience something new, and now im put back into my usual life, with new knowledge, i just hope those times would never fade away, and that no one can take those memories away from me, but add some more to the golden hues of my blessed life. put it into the right side of the netting always.

This week

2008-05-04T21:33:00.005+08:00

hello everyone! this week has been good for me!

Tuesday : English SA1, i think i really screwed up, but i hope that by doing my best, it will account for something. Praise God!

Wednesday : Chinese SA1, im not very dissapointed that chinese this time, but its not perfecr yet, gotta work hearder, but i know i did my very best, did well!

Thursday : Labour Day. Had math tuition in the morning, then met Zhi hao to study at kovan, left at 5.30 to meet mom! Went to VivoCity for Marche, and shopping! bought 5 new shirts and one pair of pants. WOOHOO

Friday : Maths and SS exam, screwed up as well, Math was kinda tough, but manageable, SS, i did extra questions! so its not that good either, hope for the best! i Know i did my best!

Saturday : Met Ben Neo for studying, then makan, Service started and we seperated, had games, in which i really enjoyed myself. we left church after at about 7 for dinner at KFC, Evan's friend, whom i cant remember her name, is really tall, and poked fun at my ugly pimply face! HAHA, i'll get her sometime! Perhaps her ONE-sided dimple. After that, hang-ed out and talked to ken soh, went home and talked on the phone for awhile, and then slept.

SUNDAY(YES!!!) : woke up really early to prepare for ushering, im an usher for main service, working for GOD! i think i did quite well, or at least reasonably well. except for a few hiccups here and there. after ushering for both services, we had lunch and ushering training, in which i almost fell asleep!

After ushering training, we left for some dessert at the nearby market, i had chendol! woohoo! but i left early to prepare for the Soccer match.

Living Sanctuary Brethren Church Soccer Squad VS Old Victorians Alumni (OVA, i didnt know what the "A" stood for, so im just guessing!)

we played pretty well, we conceded two goals in the first half, but we put in some younger players, replacing our older members, that was where the game became more steady. We pulled back one goal, courtesy of our team discipline master, Richard, with a wonderful header that left the goalkeeper bewildered. the first half ended.

second half started with me playing as a striker. early in the game, READ HERE! i was elbowed by one OVA member! i remember the feeling man, like, damn wierd cos my lips were cut by my teeth. i was taken off for a few moments to wash my wound, so i just took my bottle and washed the wound and went on. but uncle francis got me back and made sure that my bleeding stopped before i went back.the wound was quite deep and the bleeding didnt stop for quite sometime, but i iced it and went back on. i was quite angry cos like, for nothing, i get elbowed, but the man apologised and i just left it.

(back to the game)

i was very unsteady at first, cos i wasnt used to the game yet. i kept on falling back to hold the defence a little bit here and there, did quite well, at least i thought so. i was marking the really experinced and fast striker, he was not chinese definitely, and i really couldnt keep up well with an old man! i was like, "difficult to mark you ah"
he replied," then dont mark la!" haha!

he was like, a little taunting me here and there, but it wasnt like, "enemy-taunt" sort of thing.

so i took it in, the game played on with us trailing 2-1.

richard took the ball deep into their half and gave a cross, the cross was picked up by a OVA defender, whom i pressured,and he lost the ball! right outside the penalty area! i took the ball, and measured my timing, drew my right leg back... and Forced the ball passed the Goalkeeper. i just had enough time to see the ball pass the keeper, and i celebrated with a few punches into the air, i felt quite Vengful, not really happy maybe cos i was elbowed, BUT WHO CARES!took hi-fives from my team mates and continued.

and the rest, is history... we lost 3-2 after that, i left the field so that my other team mate can play. and then it got really dark. and we conceded the goal...
man........

but im happy with myself, because i overcame the early obstacle of injury and bloodshed to score a goal and show to the OVA members that LSBC people are hard and tough!

haha! im just happy that i scored a goal la, if i went back home without a goal and an injury, i'd be angry. so i guess, the goal made the injury worthwhile.

the match was at Victoria School, Marine Parade area, so as i passed the area, i guess most of you could probably guess how i felt, hmm..... losing a bunch of people, doesnt really help in life, but i guess actions are what define one's life.

my right calf feels sore, my left hip feels dislocated, my left wrist feels fractured, and now, my mouth has a really deep cut... DAMN!

sports has its backlashes, but i still feel that only losers stay at home and do stuff that are not vigorous, sweat it out like a true man,or sportsmen like me will definitely look down on some of you. and i dont mean to put down anyone! work hard on the pitch!

STEPH

2008-04-29T21:33:00.001+08:00

hello everyone, this post is about my friend stephanie

she is a nice person, and cares for me alot, helping me through difficult times.

haha! ask me more about her!

sorry! but i cant post too much about her.

hello!

2008-04-27T20:30:00.004+08:00

well, today was really an awesome day!

i woke up at 11? and i realised i was running late for church service, and it seems that there is no reason for me to panic whenever i think i am late! Because somehow i wont be TOO late, or i'll be on time, praise God!

i reached church by the end of the first song, so i wasnt really late. haha!

anyways, after service, i tasted something i never tasted before........ POP TARTS!

i remember a friend bought it once, but i didnt try it. WHAT A MISTAKE THAT WAS! Pop tarts are awesome, little biscuits with sweet cherry goodness in every bite. but i think the ones i ate today are a little soggy, as in, the biscuit, or are they suppoused to be like that?

the delicious treats, are courtesy of Abigail, who had just returned from New York, and thats not a good thing! Its not really good for someone to tell you how amazing a beautiful city like New York is, but not able to experience it yourself! she keeps telling us how amazing New York is, and its making me real jealous, so much so that i wanna go to!

They have BIG-ASS pizza slices and FLOATING CLOCKS!!!!

After the amazing Pop-Tart Tasting Session, we headed to Bishan, where on the way, Abigail told me alot more about New York, and making me kinda, YEARN to go to New York for the same experience, except for the part where the Girls there are SUPER TALL, being a short Asian person doesnt help.

So we Finally Arrived at Bishan after a wonderful conversation about New York, we had..... PASTAMANIA, which is quite an alright place to eat if you have a considerable amount of money to spend. A Sustainable meal would cost like then $10. A Good meal, Coupled with Drinks and Garlic bread, would cost a little more than $15.

HOWEVER, for a good experience, just bring down $25. thats good enough.

the Cute thing about the place is.... its POCKET MENUS!

haha!

anyways i left at 2.30 to head down to tuition, and i arrived 5mins late, which proves my theory about late-ness earlier on.

I'm Quite Okay with Maths now, and a B is definitely within range, for now.

anything more than a B is a bonus given to me by God.

reached home, and prepared for SOCCER!

we had a good session today. i scored one, and made good passes, good tackles, and good runs. it was nice.

after the game, reached home, and now i'm writing my blog, haha!

gonna go to the pool place to check whether my phone has been recovered, the man said i'll get it back by this weekend.

I'm EXTREMELY sorry if i havent replied to any of your messages, i lost my phone!

SORRY GUYS!

101

2008-04-26T02:14:00.003+08:00

this morning.......... DAMN RETARDED.

okay, you see, i wanted to pick up abigail from the airport. As her flight from Frankfurt would arrive at 6.35, i decided that i would wake up at 5 o'clock and by the time i prepared and took the bus or mrt down to Changi, i would be on time.

Because i knew i always had trouble waking up, i decided to sleep early, at 9.

good idea? it is!

however, i had trouble waking up at the correct time!!!!

i woke up at, 11pm, at 2am, at 3am, at 4am, and at 6!

i totally missed the 5am mark! how?

well my deduction is that, as i stared at the clock each time i woke up, i must have pressed the bell, causing it to not ring at its designated time, which was 5am.

and in the end, i woke up at 6, at that time, although i was shocked, i wasnt as jumpy as i thought i would be, because given normal circumstances, i would be panicking to be so late!

however, i managed to reach Changi on time, at 6.35am.

miracle? not quite.

just ask the efficiency of the Singapore transport system. HEH!

anyways, i reached terminal 3 on time, and trust me, terminal 3 is beautiful, though its architectural design goes no where as grand as terminal 2. terminal 2's arched roof design lets it use less pillars, meaning more room space not only for commuters, but also for shops and admin stations.

BACK TO TERMINAL 3

so i waited outside the gate where Abby would arrive.

As a bunch of green tee-ed PL choir girls squirmed through the gate and flooded the lobby, i just couldnt recognise any one of them.

so i waited like a BA-GOON, standing there, with a little flower in hand.

late on, their president, called for all of them to assemble together and take a picture.

however they did not, and guess what i heard.

"where's abigail??"

HAHAH!!!!!!

BLUR SOTONG!!! and i thought i missed her, turns out she was still at the belt!

so, she finally arrived and i talked to her la, then i headed to school, late.

ahh.. fast forward to tonight!

on a short note, i scored 8 goals in soccer today!

i started on my essay, and ended giving it up, i just cannot seem to right, cos everything that i think of kinda reminds me of what had happened these two months.

so i gave up, and i talked to God about these things, and he took all my troubles away, and gave a an answer, of course not everyone will get to know what went on between me and God, but alot of things were answered.

Religion plays a big part of my life because i am very dependent on stuff.

independency for me, comes at a time where it really calls for it, like when i lead groups. of course, not all of these groups turn out right, or work out right. but i am glad to have been able to use my god-given leadership capabilities.

thinking about my women's rights it again is like, ripping open a healing wound, where i realised that the wound never really healed, but it was just masked over, as in the stuff that caused the pain is still there, but my wound just healed, with the stuff that caused the pain still inside, cos i never really got it all out. i never really proved my true abilities, i just did what was convinent for me, including leave the group. that is not leader-like.

and i really want to explain to the person my rationale, but hopefully, the person wouldnt be angry anymore,

i just someday i can the the person how i really feel. and the person name doesnt start with Q or C.

how i really feel, as in, my side, my thinking and my viewpoint of the situation.

but of course, it will be difficult, and i still pray that one day i can do so.

please dont judge me based on what happened, because it is just a small part of me.

character is sometimes defined as the actions you pick up.

and of course, my actions are retarded, but i wouldnt say all are retarded, cos i believe that i dont screw everything up. i only screw SOME things up.

there are times where i can say i am proud of what i did, one especially, being able to talk things out and calm down a GANGSTER! it proves that words are actually more efficient than fists!

lets hope i dont lose what's left.

ah. enough of this

lets hope i can get NO.10!

DOG

2008-04-24T19:07:00.003+08:00

im as sick as a dog, and i blame the DUST!!!

and i hope this year we can play princess mononoke again!

St Gabriel's Secondary Symphonic Band Concert 2008, 17th july!

tired!!

and im waking up early tmrw!~

polovtsia

2008-04-21T23:06:00.001+08:00

<<<<<>>>>>>

hmm, let's start with sunday,

well, i woke up quite early this sunday, forgot why though. heh.

anyways, i followed my parents to the wet market for breakfast, after which, i went home myself, because service starts ar 11, i had to go home and bathe and prepare all.

so, i went for service, walked to the bus stop and that was where i saw the gammells.
i mean Gammells, this is because their whole family goes to church together, talked to Uncle Francis and Aunty Nancy for awhile, then i talked to Kristy, she's going through some bad patches now and like, i kinda know how she feels... i guess. anyways, we had a good chat, and we arrived at church together, Uncle Francis and Aunty Nancy took the back gate toward the dining area, so me and Kristy walked to the front gate all, yep. we parted your ways at the lift there. haha. My English is TERRIBLE.

anyways, i had to wait for Sarah, cos like, we were the only two from our group of friends, that attended service that morning, Dex And Ben had duties, so yeah.

anyways, i waited for sarah for quite long, cos she was watching some movie? cant remember what she said.

so service started, and i praised God like i awesome-ly?(Bad Phrasing, but you get it) haha.

yeah, it has been sometime since i have been regular for service.

after praise and worship, it was SERMON.

we had a BRILLIANT Speaker from Victory Family Center(or was it Church?) but either way it was VFC.

he spoke in a way that reflected many scenes of my life and it proved to be valuable.

God Does NOT Care Much About Ranking/Position, because when we all go to heaven, ranking and position does not matter, we leave our worldy credicials behind.

God only asks for you best in whatever you do, striving for excellence is good, but all he asks for is for you to do your best.The reason this impacts me alot because for me, there are times where i do my best to EXCEL, and nothing comes out, whereas sometimes, i just do normal stuff, i get to the TOP.

GOD Wants Excellence in Character.

so yeah, that service imapcted me ESP, the Excellence in character.

the reason being, if we had a scale, from 1-10, 1 being BAD Character,and 10 being excellence character, i'm afraid i rate very low in the standings, and by being low, i have fallen short of god's glory.

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New, heh

anyways, after service, we went for lunch at the pool place at KOVAN, we had a few good rounds and we decided to leave.

and i left my phone at the paying counter! so i went up and like, asked around la, but in the end, i couldnt get it back, so no point being too upset about it, although i was, but it was wierd that in such a short time i could lose my phone, also it was turned off, which means someone handled it. but still no point getting too upset over it, i left the place to prepare for soccer.

SOCCER! The Beautiful game.... haha,

anyways, Uncle Francis and I talked awhile while waiting for a ride, talked about Catholics and Protestants, and i found out quite alot, too much to put it in here.

so we arrived at bishan, and game started i ran quite abit and had a few assists and scored one, which was quite okay for me. so i ended the game quite well.

went back and took dinner outside, BEEF STEW!!!!

then at around, 8-9+. i prayed to god and had some quite time, and he answered alot of my questions.

and then, i embarked on the journey to the Kovan pool place, where i talked to the manager about my phone, he said he would review the CCTV playback and tell me what went on in the afternoon, PRAISE GOD FOR THAT! he is really a nice person, and like, most businesses wouldnt even care, but this man cared, its so cool la!

so i returned on monday, at like 6pm, and waited till 9.30 pm. but i'm not complaining, cos like, in a good character, one must have patience, so i waited and did my maths TYS. !! hardworking??

i was so glad when he arrived, and he told me he had already done everything to get my phone back, and will be returned this weekend.

turns out, when i left my phone at the counter, another group of boys came around and took the phone, those boys were a regular bunch of boys and frequent the place. the manager called them up and told them about the missing phone, and if they do not return it, the proper authourities would be brought in, THANK GOD!! really, i think i'm really blessed by god to let this happen! WOOHOO!

alright reaching the end of the post, heh, gotta retake shuttle run, cos its not an A, its 10.7, far too slow, NEXT WEEK!

goodbye!

God Can Solve Everything, Prayer Does Wonders.

Haydn.

2008-04-15T21:27:00.002+08:00

hello..

I think i'll be joining SWSYouth again soon. they're are having a concert, and i think i wanna help them!

haha!

no posts about today.

At this point of time, having not even reached the noon of your life, no one can grieve for you, only you can grieve for yourself...

you have to decide well on everyting man, you really have.. =)

2008-04-14T21:53:00.002+08:00

hey guys, it was been one hell of a ride for me.

maybe i'm in depression mode or smoething.

haha.

anyways, convictions.

they are always there arent they?

somehow, convictions seem more painful than embarrassing at times.

but in any case, i guess my convictions haunt me alot.

maybe thats what they want.... hmm..

so anyways, last night was terrible.

i havent been eating well these weeks and i havent been passing motion well.

so yeah, eating disorder i guess.

whenever i start eating, i feel like puking, really, its damn gross. but i force myself to eat, otherwise later i faint all. cannot la... and like havent been gaining weight since last year.. and i need to get bigger, otherwise i'd get roughed up on the field!

the other thing is... i pass motion every 2-3 days, i know its damn gross and i should be posting something so gross on my blog.. HAHAHAHAHA. but when i shi-- i mean pass motion, its DAMN SHOIK. like all the things stuck up there is let out... woooooooooooh.....

HAHAH! the wierd thing is.. that my poop is either GREEN or WATERY.... er.. yeah.

back to the point.

cos last night, i could not pass motion, and i was having the worst stomachache of the century...

the whole night i could not shit... and like i couldnt sleep, cos the stomachache pain was there, and like, other stuffs la.

but finally, i got an hour of sleep. then i was awakened by my dad, at 7.

i told him about the contispation and i didnt go to school this morning!

then i was able to sleep well, until like 10?

so after that, i went to the doctor, and he prescribed me medication, and told me to look after myself, like, physically, and...... MENTALLY ---> (i was about to tell him to piss off)

cos like, i told him about the stress la, he was like..

" do you have suidical thoughts? "

WTF???!!!!

i reached home and i forced down some porrige. After which, i went to watch the Champion's League High-lights on ESPN.

around.... 3-4? like that.. i began to pass motion.... FINALLY!!!!!!!!!

DAMN SHOIK!!!!!!!! the medication worked!~~~

haha, but it was all watery and gross.

anyways, i left home for a 50 min jog + workout.

i think i can get gold for nafa this year! WOOHOO~~ although i seem fit, silver is my best so far.

so anyways, i reached home.. and washed up. and prepared to meet JEANette.

and i think she is blind...

we were suppoussed to meet at dhoby ghuat at 6?

but i ended up meeting her esle where

cos like, at serangoon MRT, i was waiting la, then i saw her. she was walking toward the end carriages of the train.

so in order to get her attention, i COUGHED REALLY LOUD, she turned and looked at me, and then she turned away... like...????

but i when up to say hi all. then all was fine, she got me a book! HAHA

so we talked, and we reached dhoby, where she was meeting her friend. once her friend arrived, i left, and on the way home, i went for dinner....

this time i didnt have to force myself... PERHAPS cos i SHITTED in the afternoon.

then i went for a haircut.. although i have very little hair, my side were kinda getting too long, and i hated it, so i when for a cut.

and i got the barber guy to shave of the "whatever i had of a moustashe" off.

i feel to clean and neat now!

apart from the big ass pimple on my face... CRAP.

so, after my CUT, i went to the nearby wet-market to get.... BANANAS!

cos banana's are suppoused to be magical fruits that help people to poop.

haha, so i got home and rest, and now im writing this.

REMEMBER GUYS! IF YOU STAY HAPPY, YOU CANT FEEL SAD!

Poem.

2008-04-12T23:41:00.002+08:00

Even when look gloomy,

your always looming,

swaying and staying,

stopping me from tossing and turning,

late at night.

Even when things start to look better,

you'll be there, like nothing else matters.

looking after me and chasing my debtors.

late at night

Even when i start regretting,

and i start fretting,

you'll be there to ensure that i wont be crying,

late at night

as you all already know, i've been through quite a bit, maybe not to you guys, but to me its been a trip to the borders of hell and i'm still being pulled back. cos its during the late nights, that all the memories flood back, be it good or bad, they both wrench my heart. i smile and frown within the same second, thats a first time for me.

i sound like one of those guys i would scorn when i read this sort of thing.

but i finally realised what they really went through,

in the past, i'd say, " Get a grip on yourself and move on"

i finally know how difficult it is.

i guess this time its different cos i've lost a group of friends i guess, not just queenie,

but also perhaps the whole women's rights group, not losing them literally,

but i'll never be able to talk to them like i used to ever again.

and i hate that, i remember the time i pissed Elsa off, it was madness.

now Elsa and I are more or less okay, but of course, not as okay as before.

(Elsa, if you can see this, You Know It Wasnt Me!)

but now, i face something else, for the group has given me chances, but i took far too long.

i just hope i havent gone beyond measure.

all these feelings, i can never explain them to anyone. can i realised that people can suddenly broke down.

cos today i did, and i know that it is uncontrollable.

i went to church a normal person.

i went to altar call a normal boy.

i left altar call crying like a kid, and this is real crying, something that i couldnt stop.

then i became back to normal.

i realised that all the things i always read about, it is all possible.

break downs, broken hearts, being unable to pick yourself up,

its all true.

perhaps someday, i can tell some people how i really felt, so that others might know what its like.

or maybe its Karma/Retribution.

Cos this is the first time i feel so shitty.

all my past relationships, its always the girls that are upset, and I'll be normal.

perhaps its a taste of my own medicine.

now i finally know what its like to become a zombie, a slave to the emotion's of one's heart.

but i hope that this cup can pass from me soon.

all the heart wrenching feelings.

perhaps one day, i can somehow look back, and say, i'm glad that i never committed the same mistake again.

perhaps, only perhaps.

i love....

painful

2008-04-09T23:35:00.002+08:00

hey guys, i've never talk about this before, i guess i just want someone to know.

its not trying to get back at anyone. but keeping so much kooped up really makes my heart ache, serious.

i havent been able to tell anyone how i felt so far, cos i keep saying i dont wanna talk about it. I cant seem to trust even the person i've known for damn long. cos even that person leaked things out, so this is my side, in writing

i had an awesome girlfriend, and her name was Queenie Szeto.

We got together pretty quickly and i fell deeply emotional with her.

her every smile would brighten up my day. her every laugh would take my breath away.

so yeah, a reached a milestone pretty quickly, i brought her out for dinner and a movie. and of course it was an awesome night, and thats for me to know, and none of you to ever find out.

but i guess my emotions got the better of me.

you see, the both of us were in a group, a same group of youths fighting for women's rights.

i was the director, and after me and queenie got together i started to push alot of work to my vice-director.

my Vice-Director was willing to help me, but of course everyone reaches his/her limit.

anyways, one morning, me and queenie met for breakfast, she was her usual bubbly self, but a little different, perhaps she was tired.

so we took our breakfast, and i sent her home,she had to study. i of course stayed at Marine Parade, indulging in Cafes and coffee.

but i got bored real early and i left marine parade for the meeting place, which was my vice-director's home. about an hour early?

so we talked and the group members arrived,

then queenie called my vice-director, she called to say that she was having a terrible headache,

by then, my heart sank, and she was making her way here. i didnt know what to do, i felt that if i showed concern, the group would know i was treating someone else differently. and they would suspect.

so when she arrived, i was really glad that she was alright.

but the whole day, i guess i craved for her attention.

toward the end of the meeting, we took a walk near a swimming pool, my vice-director and queenie had many whispering conversations, which i would later find out that was nothing of my concern.

but of course i grew increasing uptight.

i tried to disturb her by saying i'd throw her into the pool. and that caused nothing but trouble; a security guard came along and reprimanded us.

and the walk toward's queenie's place, i think i was someone else.

i became extremely intolerant at what ever queenie would say, even small comments.

and then i guess i snapped. i was being all fucking emo and shit, i was being a bastard.i forgot that she had a bad headache just now. i didnt even think about that.

she then went up home and i took the bus back.

when i reached home, we talked over the phone. and i was being so retarded.

i didnt know what i was doing, i was like, having a split-personality or something.

then toward the end, we talked about knowing we're actually not working out. and all that sort of stuff. i didnt wanna end it either.

but i had a bad nack, i dont really talk to my ex girlfriends, which i think she was afraid of losing a friend. so she held on too.

we talked about alot of stuff which i cant seem to remember.

but i know one night i cried, i cried cos i guess i was upset that i couldnt get her attention.

and that was what sparked the change, since then, she became really careful of what she said to me.

and then i guess our relationship declined our phone calls were never as exciting or as chatty, so on the 29th of march, a relationship that started on the 29th of February, ended. maybe if that night i didnt be all emo and shit, i would be okay.

i was really upset, but queenie held up a strong front, she seemed to be really happy after that, she spoke like as if we were never together. i mistook whatever she meant, and took it as that i was a really bad mistake and i noticed it.

so, a few days after we broke up,keith suddenly ignored me. but i was really missing her, i needed her to tell me something, anything. but my bad nack was in place, the one that i dont really talk to my ex's. i could remember how she said "YO!" to me over the phone, but i spoke very monotonously, i was being a fool. now that i look back at it, i regret what i did, cos if i didnt do that, we'd still be okay.

so one night i really really missed her, i called up someone

but that someone told me something really painful, she said that queenie told a group that she felt that i was the worst mistake of her life, and that she had actually wanted to end it earlier but did not know why she held on. when her friends probed her about kissing me, she would run away shouting, shut up shut up.

imagine how hurt i was, i minute i was missing her, the other minute i was cursing her, i was at a loss, cos i was still loving her.

i guess i plotted a revenge sort of thing, i thought that ignoring her would be a good thing, cos the way keith ignored me, it really just added on to the hurt that was already on me. i wanted queenie to know that i felt hurt.

so on the next meeting, i was ignoring her, and i felt really bad about it,

so i called her to tell her i'm sorry that. but i diverted and turned my attention as to why she said all those things, i kept pushing and pushing and pushing, to a point where she fainted. it was there that i finally realised what i was doing. but it was too late, what has been done is done.

i apologised again and told her that i still loved her, and i told her to get a good rest and i'm sorry.

the next morning, i woke up at 7, on a sunday. i took a walk around my neighbourhood and reflected hard on my actions. i realised where i went wrong.

then in the afternoon, my vice-director called me, she said that i was time i stopped harassing queenie, because she suffered enough, at first i was wilful, like a child unwilling to admit his mistake,

but she gave me an ultimatum. sort out your personal life and work or risk losing a place in the team. and that was where i knew it. i knew that i FUCKED UP EVERYTHING.

so that night, i told my vice-director to tell queenie that i'm really sorry and i wont bring up the past again. queenie even asked me whether i'm okay.

i was dead ashamed of myself, having already lost all respect for myself, queenie still cared for me, i could bring myself to reply her.

so i think two days passed, and i got wind that queenie and my vice-director thought of kicking me off the group, i was dammned lost at that time. so i stepped down. nobody knew what i really went through.

i regret that decision right now, but what has been done is done. i cant change that.

but of course i cannot express how i truly feel in words. loving someone, losing someone, stepping down from a group,

all of this happened because i was an idiot on that few incidents leading up to the time i cried and the crying incident as well,

if i used my brains harder, maybe all of this wouldnt have happened, but there are always outside factors, even my story here is biased, i this is the way i guess i'm letting it all flow out,

i'm not like trying to get back at anyone, but i've had my story couped up in me for so long, and i dont dare to tell anyone verbally, cowardice. perhaps this is the only way. and i've yet to explain all this to queenie. i should have done that from the start.

and the cause of my own pain and suffering is all my fault.

and so, this is my side. i really hope someday, everything will become better.

this might be a last post for a long long time. 10th april 2008.

home and mahler

2008-04-02T22:33:00.004+08:00

GUSTAV MAHLER.

anyways, this whole week has been hectic, training everyday since monday. but its like, quite shoik ah...

haha.

my right calf hurts. ouch.... man, i wouldnt have had this problem if i didnt play soccer during recess(where i fell on my right leg), training kinda worsened the pain.

ever had your thighs burn?

yesterday there was core muscles, i had to like, sit ninety degrees against a wall, as in... my thighs are perpendicular to the wall! for one minute la. obviously it was unbearable... the last time i did that was in sec 2. while i was still in Karate.

so undeniably, today, whenever i ran, my thighs ached, but its all in the process of another pair of even solid-er thighs. heh

so, after training, me and imran took the mrt to Toa Payoh, as we do everyday after training. but today, it was different.. i went to the BEST SANDWICH SHOP IN THE WORLD....... SUBWAY.

after training, i was damn hungry all.. so like, i asked for double meat... which meant 4 pieces of delicious roasted beef with a hint of pepper and the sweetness of honey..... but i was like.

"hey man, can you like... make it really double meat...?"

you know what he did? he gave me 7 pieces la.

i was like.....

"YES AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH".

he then quickly said...

Shhhhhh..... later the lady boss notice.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

so anyways, went home a happy boy...

as they say.....

the way to a man's heart is through his stomach.

guess thats true! in my case!

enough of the sandwich artists.

today in school, was damn crap la.

Aaron Charles Mossadeg.

he a nice guy, but he gets carried away sometimes.

did you know? he likes to insult me? for like, no apparent reason?

so, for the whole of last year, he picked on my religion, protestantism.

well, i didnt say anything la.

but today was damnned pissing off.

in was being reprimanded and he just all of a sudden say.

" we admit our mistakes, not like a race of chin hong."

so obviously i flared up.

but you guys dont know what went on. that day in class, we was like. can you just shut up?

i wasnt even talking to him la. so what if he found it irritating.

when others talk, he doesnt say anyhting about them. obviously picking on me.

while i was playing soccer during recess.

he was like, protestant, go suck my balls.

WHAT THE FUCK?

recently, i'm in quite a down mood, so yeah.

i guess he got me at a wrong time.

i flared up and almost beat him up in Social Studies class.

of course i felt bad after that.. but i feel that i didnt do anything wrong, so i didnt apologise.

i hope someone can quickly point me in the right direction.
yep.

afterall, i knew him since Primary 5.

no point losing a friend. if he still considers me as one.

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next week

2008-03-30T19:38:00.003+08:00

it has been a long time hasn't it?

anyways, here's my schedule for next week.

MONDAY - school,Tuition,Soccer Training.
TUESDAY - school,Band Practice,Soccer Training.
WEDNESDAY - School,Tuition,Soccer Training.
THURSDAY - School, Band Practice,Soccer Training.
FRIDAY - School, Tuition/Band Practice, Perhaps a swim somewhere.
SATURDAY - HOME UNITED MATCH DAY, Church, Relax.
SUNDAY - ???

As you can see, my heavily packed this week.
Its like, Soccer training from Monday to Thursday! now.. is that a good thing?
well, being my o'level year, of course its not, i guess its just a small passion for soccer.
but the guys over at home united are DAMN friendly...!
its only my second training and they are really nice to me!
not to mention they are real skillful too.

also, I've been neglecting my faith as well.
since last year's.. June? my walk with god has really changed.
in the past, i could control my swearing, but of course no one knew.
but now, its different. my mouth spouts out whatever it wants.
Now... is that how a christian should live?

of course not, I've already disappointed Him so much.
the way i see it, after youth camp in 2006, i was living it all for God.
but now, I'm in such a pathetic state,
i'm no longer anxious to worship and love him.
i'm just in a mess.

I'm sorry.

but of course, God is loving and caring, he can forgive me. and everything will be the same.
i serve an awesome GOD

JCs

2008-02-18T22:24:00.002+08:00

okay lets see.

i think for JCs, im gonna have to go through using either, BAND ,TABLE TENNIS, SOCCER

now, lets take a look at some of the JCs i have in mind.

1) Anderson Junior College
2) Serangoon Junior College
3) Temasek Junior College
4) Catholic Junior College
5) Nanyang Junior College
6) Saint Andrew's Junior College
7) Tampines Junior College

Out of the seven, lets see who Might have : SOCCER

Anderson, Nanyang, Saint Andrews, Tampines

Out of the Seven, lets see who Might have : Table Tennis

Anderson, Catholic, Nanyang, Saint Andrews, Serangoon, Tampines

Out of the seven, lets see who might have : Band

Temasek, Serangoon, Anderson, Catholic, Nanyang, Saint Andrews, Tampines

in upward order, the ranking, (in my terms)

Serangoon, Tampines, Anderson, Catholic, Saint Andrew's, Nanyang, Temasek.

Catholic has an advantage that i get to Minus off 2 points because of affiliation

Temasek has an advantage that Mr lin, Band conductor who seems to like me, teaches there.

Tampines has an advantage that my school's coach teaches there as well.

however, CJC, i can not only enter thru band, but also table tennis.

WHAT SHALL I DO?

S-T_I

2008-02-11T00:58:00.000+08:00

hey people, i really find some things damn irritating la, for example,

i wait so LONG for something, for it to be taken away, by someone not worthy of it.

wont you find that irritating?

knight

2008-01-27T21:44:00.001+08:00

a man who hides his sighs.

akin to finding suicide.

tampering with dice.

fighting with the mice.

the young boy in his pain ,cries.

just to see all his lies,

unfolding and tiwrling, spinning and dancing.

in a never ending high,

high high in the sky.

smiling toward the height.

eagles span and tie.

just to soar high.

high, high

and thats just how i feel, its not really fun tampering with suicide all the time.

i just hate the was you force me.

and sometimes, it would be nice to just fly away from here, from well, to put it in a bad way. you.

and if you can leave me alone

well, its not perfect

2008-01-13T00:28:00.000+08:00

okay, life's never been fair has it?

sometimes, you get wronged, sometimes you get ditched, sometimes you get scorned, sometimes you get taken out on, and on get pushed around.

and you never see the person who does that to you getting his or her JUST deserves, but it does not mean that they do not in a way " repay " their retributions.

right?

dont always think of how to get the person, think of how you can make the person see things your way.

and if things get outta hand, relax, and WAIT. Patience is key.

because no matter what, theres no way that a person can keep up and attitude against you for too long.

PATIENCE, patience

HMM?

2008-01-06T02:46:00.000+08:00

After some reading, i really thought of something.

what does love actually mean?

I got my answer few weeks back, at my church's event, love actually

love it seems is in a way, UNDEFINABLE

however, i was looking for a different answer from one that comes from the gospel.

you see, although the gospel gives us the answer to all, it always leads to god.

but what if the person i'm trying to express my love to doesnt know god? does it help?

Probrably not.

somehow i feel, love is unlike any emotion we have, be it hate or anger.

you can hate easily, you can be angry easily.......

BUT! can you love easily?

if i poped that question to any of you, can you EASILY answer me?

love comes from inside of you, not just that gutting feeling you feel whenever you see the one you like. its more than that.

can you EASILY give up anything or EVERYTHING for the one you love?

can you EASILY break the Traditions, Taboos, Rules for the one you love?

i dont think so.

However there is one thing that I'm SURE i can do for the one i love.

CAN YOU GIVE EVERYTHING THAT HE/SHE WANTS?

THAT'S one thing i can EASILY do for the one i love.

I heard a phrase of some sort, from a wise man.

"because love is Spelt G-I-V-E. I am willing to Give you this, because i LOVE you."

therefore, i finally feel, after writing so much, that love is give.

that giving OUT OF FREE WILL, means love.

can you give out of free will to the one you dislike?

or is it EASIER to GIVE OUT OF FREE WILL to the one you love?

and if you must know, i never prepared anything, i'm just writing off-hand.

i believe that this is God, using me in a way, to speak to someone.

why else would i be on the computer at 3 in the morning?

TURANDOT.

heys

2008-01-03T22:04:00.000+08:00

Alright guys, this is a bunch of pictures taken during the holidays!

Thats Me and Eunice, i was in a suit! cool right? and it was just nice for me la, not too big, not too small. WOOHOO

This was in japan, me and Santa Maria! haha. we were on the bus after shopping at night! i gotta tell you japan's shopping is awesome!!

thats me and the japanese band member! cant remember her name! but i bet if she saw this, she cant remember mine either!

band members again! but do you know? they are like 17 years old??

now these two pretty GIRLS are from my trumpet section, they came to find me! haha! i kinda miss them tho.

this was taken at Harajuku or was it Shinjuku?
In any case, thats me, followed by Benjiamin and then Jing Xuan. yep. JAPAN

we also managed a trip to the Yamaha Factory, and did you know? the world renowed Weiner Philharmoniker or Vienna Philharmonic Orchestra uses Yamaha instruments as well? Btw, the Weiner Philharmoniker is considered the FINEST in the world

after DISNEYLAND! YAY, i was just fooling around haha. NINJA!!! tUtrLe?

disneyland Personnel!

disneyland personnel again!

thats snow on Mount fuji, fifth station i think. but still, it was awesome!

i'm sorry guys, but i've turned GAY!!!!! yep. shannon is my buddy!

finally back home, this is what i got back!

i still have alot of pictures, but im not gonna show all la, 300+ you know?

and its time

2007-11-27T23:22:00.000+08:00

JAPN JAPAN JAPAN!

its damn awesome!

someone said that i should post one last post before my Exchange/Tour.

so here i am

did you know? im gonna have to tug back 90+ gifts? this is so retarded!!!

things over there are damn ex la, so, hopefully i get some bargain value! YAY!

i dont have anything much to say to you guys no more. so. WISH ME THE BEST OF LUCK IN MY TRIP!!!!

i'll be back with gifts!!

in fact

2007-11-19T22:46:00.000+08:00

slowly, as the night passes, the boy finds a shocking revealation.

this new finding makes him really worried, confused and most importantly. it makes him reflect on himself.

he knew what he was doing, his friends told him not to push his luck,

however, he chose to do whatever he pleased. and now this has happened.

he knew he has to becareful, for this has happened before, but the FUCKING BASTARD had to do it again.

and now, he wishes that nothing will change, but it seems, the other party feels everything will change.

prevention is suppoused to be better than cure, why?

COS THE CURE IS DAMN BLOODY LONG AND PAINFUL

time heals everything issit? i choose to believe so.

but during the course of this time.

what does the "patient" feel?

u wanna know?

he thinks about what he has done, and how it went wrong.

and he hates himself. for doing something that a jerk will do.

a FUCKING JERK.

thanks alot man. you know this is not the first time. and u do it again.

u think yr body likes it ah? u wanna spend sleepless nights again right?

u wanna not be in any mood at all right?

fuck it.

really, it seems this is kinda true.

If Life's A Dick, Fuck It

and now that life is being a total dick to me.

fuck it.

seriously fuck it.

i know im not suppoused to swear. but i just want to right now.

im sorry.

and if u read this, its really not u. its just me. i'll explain it to u i promise

PROUD

2007-11-11T02:54:00.000+08:00

Im DAMN PROUD OF HIM

opps wrong picture

Wrong again, thats ME! haha and this not zi lian, afterall. im a model okay.

thats him, his name is SASI

haha

okay, im proud of him cos he didnt let me down.

few days back, he quarrelled with me and some other friends.

we all got mad, and had "Silent Communion"

we decided to ignore each other.

i chose to believe that he will not dissapoint me, that he will realise that friendship is not that easily broken.

and sure enough he did not.

he apologised, just as we were discussing about him. at a time when we all felt extremely upset over him.

and just a series of words. " I am SORRY "

it changed the atmosphere, and now, we are friends again.

so what if it came over the phone? its the fact that he apologised that is worthy of recognition. and for that i give him my upmost cheer.

haha. SASI, thanks, u didnt let me down.

although u did do something that made me quite angry.

u quarrelled with stephanie, over me? and the words u used, SCARY. haha but im still a friend.

OH and STEPH, thankyou for sending the 5 page long message to him, it means alot that u will do such a thing for me.

dont worry, i WILL write more letters.

and your christmas present, it will be AWESOME.

Jolly-oh, and HOHOHO

Steph

2007-11-07T22:03:00.000+08:00

Alright. here go go~!

Stephanie, okay. she is a friend whom i met not long ago? Within a short period of time, we have already become close friends?

Meeting out, and just hanging out.

she is REALLLY NICE, and one that u can just, disturb about her height!

shes is not one of those girls who are Damn serious, or Damn ah lian.

She is the same with me and arnd her friends.

she doesnt pretend to be someone else, she doesnt have to!

although sometimes i dissapoint her, she always finds it in her heart to forgive me.

she is always there, when i need her the most.

And that is why i LOVE HER SO MUCH.

exchanging private letters, thats one thing.

but the words used, its a totally different thing.

and [ W O L S ], its a inside thing, u guys will never know!

2007-11-07T00:49:00.000+08:00

HI!

The person on the left side, is STEPHANIE!!!

she is my Special-Close friend.

OH MAN, my mom wanna use the computer, SORRY GUYS.

I'll blog next time

MUSIC

2007-11-02T21:26:00.000+08:00

Music, its a large part of anyone's life.

coming in many forms, be it Rap, Hip Hop, Classical or even Beat Boxing, one HAS to say that music has amajor role in anyone's life.

music, can be defined as,
an art of sound in time that expresses ideas and emotions in significant forms through the elements of rhythm, melody, harmony, and color. [Dictionary.com]

Music holds a strangle-hold in my life, being in the School Band, im perpetually held hold down by music. In fact, by today's standards. Everyone is Perpetually held down by music, till their deathbed.

this is not beacuse music is in our nature, but because music is everywhere.

due to the vast technological advancements, music can be tranfered to another person a thousand miles away.

in the past, when there were no electric guitars, or even electricity, Music were written on manuscript papers, and rarely made any headway from its own region.

now, with technology, musicians/artisites/composers. Their works can be heard far away from their homeland. just like american POP songs, they top the charts here in singapore!

with a wider consumer group,they easily become "stars"

and with radioes, eveyone can listen to music, simply tune in to the various radio stations.

retarded post.

see ya guys

sory!

2007-11-01T23:38:00.000+08:00

SORRY KHAI!!!

2007-11-01T21:38:00.001+08:00

The trumpet is a musical instrument in the brass family. The trumpet has the highest register in the brass section; a standard B flat trumpet has a range comparable to the B flat cornet, a piccolo trumpet is an octave higher. A musician who plays the trumpet is called a trumpet player or trumpeter. The most common trumpet by far is a transposing instrument pitched in B flat - the note read as middle C sounds as the B flat 2 semitones below - but there are many other trumpets in this family of instruments.

Trumpets are extremely important for composers in today's modern repertoire.

they can either represent brightness, fear, a shining hope or just a natural call.

HAHA

2007-10-31T21:42:00.000+08:00

Jeff Hardy
has anyone seen my brother, Matt Hardy?? 31 Oct 07 02:25
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HOT
i'm sizzling hot. are you hot enough for me? 31 Oct 07 02:24
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veronica
: D 29 Oct 07 20:17
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veronica
YOU HAVENT DONE IT! 29 Oct 07 20:17
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can u imagine what some people do to get some attention.?

retarded people, and u think im hot? thank you!

sad?

2007-10-26T20:15:00.000+08:00

Ever wondered why there are so many disputes in this world? I have. and perhaps. i maybe have found the long awaited answer, this may not be a solution to worldwide violence, but it may tell us a reason why there is worldwide violence and perhaps. give us a thinking point, granted my viewpoint may not be the clearest, but who is to say that its blurry?

Many people put up fake fronts, agreed. I, myself included. i do try not to do so. however many failed attempts have led me to believe that fake fronts are part of lives, in order to get the best out of relationships. doesnt matter how saintly u are. if the person hates saintly people, there is no way your getting close to being friends.

if another sees outgoing-ness as attention-seeking, the "see-er" may avoid the "attention-seeker" for various reasons, eg. talking too much.

personally, i have encountered instances where people feel its alright to have different faces or fake fronts.

an excuse would be, " playing different roles"

- a role as a daughter at home. quarrel with family members and never giving in.
- a role as a daughter while friends are around, acting all loving to family and doing the dishes.
- a role as a friend. treating friends as company and pieces of junk that u can throw and retrieve and one's own timing.
- a role as a friend when things are bad. being around the victim or wanting friends around when things go oh so haywire.

different roles to play? or simply a hypocrite?

granted, im not so innocent or holy myself, but i try my best to change. however, as the saying goes, the the first impression is the most important.

once these fake fronts are taken off, and thus, revealing the true person, all HELL breaks loose.

some people are nice all the time. easy-going.

some people pretend to be nice, and are usually not willing to help.

some people are nice. but gossip.

some people pretend to be nice, just because they stand to gain something

some people are nice to certain people, choosing to isolate themselves from people they deem unfit to be friends with.

some people are nice, but with certain disparities. changing moods often and taking it out on others.

some people are nice, but their tongue cannot be tamed (i feel that im like that, perhaps not nice, but my tongue has a mind of its own)

while some are not nice, but when u need their help, u can count on them.

some are not nice, and they ever change their personality

some are not nice, however, the are quick to point out who does work

some are not nice, but always fair.

some are not nice, but not hypocrites.

this goes to show that many people are different, their personality affects their thinking.

some leaders may be nice, but assholes in the back.

while some leaders may seems like assholes, but they do what is needed to keep the country going.

while some are soft, willing to accept others for who they are and respecting them.

while other leaders take advantage of such soft leaders and seize power.

readers, u may agree with what i say, u may not. but generally, i think everone thinks what i say is true, the world has hypocrites who put up fake fronts. making them almost im possible to judge what they really are.

only GOD can.

take a real example.

teacher A sees boy X crying, and leaves him alone, and teacher A is a suppoused very "caring" , "loving" , "giving" teacher.

boy X is a foreigner, who has spent almost five years in singapore, and with his friends comforting him.

finally, the teacher is free.

boy X friends leave him to talk to Teacher A

his friends, or at least one of them believes that the teacher will do a good job comforting him. and leaves them alone. this is because the teacher has shown that he/she is caring, loving, giving.

somehow, boy X starts to cry a little bit stronger, although his friends have already calmed him down, with tears falling off his eyes like Victoria Falls.

Friend A goes over and put his hand over Boy X, feeling that Boy X might need some form of physical support. Boy X seems to calm down.

soon after Teacher A tells Friend A to take his hand off, saying that Friend A is not helping.

perhaps because teacher A is the form teacher of the class Boy X is in, and Knows that friend A is not in her class and is being extra by holding him.

however, he/she doesnt know that Friend A was probrably the first Friend Boy X had when he came to Singapore, and they have really close ties.

Friend A takes his hand off. and Teacher A continues talking, and it seems like She is making him face reality.

soon, boy X tells he/she that he has certain qualities/disadvantages and that teacher A will not understand.

can u guess what teacher A says?

" YES! I WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND, SO I SHOULDNT BE HERE"

she walks to the door and says " U CAN CONTINUE CRYING YOUR HEART OUT FOR THE NEXT TWO WEEKS"

although he/she is trying to make Boy X face reality, BoyX is going through a tough period of time! cut him some slack!

maybe Boy X hasnt worked hard enough for the promotion, but still, given that point of time, he was distraught, to the point where he couldnt feel his legs!

he/she walks off.

" how can a teacher, who is suppoused to be caring, act like that? "

fake front? or jsut trying to make him face reality?

u guys werent there, and u wouldnt know the enormity of the situation, and im really fed up.

but still, if u can understand what im saying. then i think u guys know what i mean by fake fronts.

people can be nice at times, but true colours show once they are stressed out, or irritated.

before tell someone off, or even try to bring him to reality, see it from his point of view,

u'll never truly understand a person untill u stand in his skin and walk arnd in it.

and the only good thing was that stephanie met up with me today, she brought my day back to life. thanks STEPH

descriptive

2007-10-25T20:09:00.000+08:00

as the day turned into night, everyone scoured for a place. it was starting.

the wind cut the leaves at exactly the right spot, causing an eerie sound to form, breaking the silence that everyone was accustomed to.

heads turned toward the sound, and there was confusion, WERE THEY COMING?

personally, from where i sat, i could see it all. the stage, the strings, the winds.

certainly, this was not my first time,

as an avid music lover, the Berlin Philharmonic Orchestra was certainly a treat!

it was one of their outdoor concerts, with Sir Simon Rattle and his infamous left hand, teethless smiles, and jewish afro.

THE OVERTURE!

to be continued.

sad?

2007-10-24T20:59:00.000+08:00

hey guys, i watched one really saddening show today. really.

its called Brigde to Tarabithia. its was awesome, it made me cry man.

im not gonna talk about it, cos like, its making me sad.

ah, and its like, really sad la

it considers losing someone close to you.

anyways, it made me think. really.

that life really is too short.

no time for squabbles. only time to enjoy each other.

be it friends, family, teachers, even enemies.

if u lose them, theres no getting them back.

cherish them.

enough la.

after that, me and jasper + sangar when to TP for lunch, the noodles was good! but when an extra portion costs $1, all mood has been spoiled.

anyways. i'll try to find the Bridge to Terabithia movie on Youtube, and post it here. watch it, its AWESOMEZ

2007-10-23T21:18:00.000+08:00

HELLO!

Hmm, lets see. im not feeeling emo no more, i was just prolly tired.

sians, okay... TODAY!

after school, i waited for Jason, had to borrow his 1812 overture Double Bass score for steph. hehe

and so, i was outside the physics lab, waiting waiting waiting.

then, finally, he was done with the practical.

we then made our way down to the staff room, where i met MR IVAN NG.

Ivan, as he allows us to call him, haha.

anyway, we walked to Lorong Liew Lian.

and yeah. i took 153 to TP.

upon reaching the place, i saw MS CHAN PONG KIAT.

we had a lil' chat, and we parted our ways,

i stood in the middle of the interchange for awhile, feeling lost

then i decided to go to the Supermarket to buy some sweets.

and it was the Grape flavoured mentos kind.

and it was almost 2pm, so i decided to go down to the control station.

it seems that i always see a person whenever im at TP.

i think her name is Pearlyn.and i always see her, tho im meeting steph.? Steph reminded me, i was hoping to see Vanessa GAY tho. heh heh

anyways. we made our way to town. Orchard in fact.

we walked arnd, and ended up on the wrong side of Orchard.

LOL

then walked all the way to LIDO.

OH DID I TELL U!?

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she came to me and said,

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at that point of time, i felt REALLY Suprised. steph was giggling all the way.

i was like " WHAT? U GOTTA BE JOKING"

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IMI PTE LTD

Margaret - Assistant Project Coordinator

then its address.
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LOL

" hi, your really handsome, would u mind giving me your contacts?"

in my mind, i was like? WHAT THE FUCK?!

this is one crazed woman.

i saw that she was armed with a note book, filled already with a number of names, numbers and ages.

i saw many Malay names, which supported my idea that malays are HOT.

through out, i was like, " U GOTTA BE KIDDIN!"

then she said," NONO!. u have really good complexion and nice hair."

and that prolly hit the spot.

afterall, Flattery is what counts

i proceed to give her my contacts and walked off.

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then i met valerie, who supposedly needed me in a film

we filmed the show WITH ALOT OF DIFFICULTY.

people were always walking by, and the lead actress was always LAUGHING!

haha, i put up a bad show myself, but they said it was okay.

" at least i think they said so "

anyways. after that, i went to TP and met up with Steph's friends,

YES. SHE WAS WITH ME ALL THE TIME.

and it was REALLY BORING!

people kept staring la.

after that, i went home.
heheh. fun day huh?

2007-10-22T23:48:00.000+08:00

i feel emo. and why?

crap la, dont feel like sleeping at all, but im tired.

oh yeah, cutting the underside of my hands are not happening.

maybe im just tired, ahhh

or maybe i just need someone. not an irritant to be arnd me.

someone who can understand feelings well, definitely not guys.

ah, crap la

to put god first is of upmost importance, but what if one forgets how to do so?

DRUNK BABAYE

2007-10-14T14:49:00.000+08:00

woohoo, i was drunk last night, and i did retarded things

i called like, alot of people to tell them i was drunK!

haha, ask me about it!

Princess Mononoke

2007-09-20T00:49:00.000+08:00

okay, this song is one nice one, i've played the band version before, but the Orchestra Version is much better.

thats the pic, haha! okay then, see ya

65 65 65 ~

2007-09-16T20:57:00.000+08:00

okay.

lets see, interesting post today,

EVERYTHING, started on friday, i stayed back in school to finish my art piece for Rain Camp.

its not bad, but since im given more time, i shall do another one! with help of Miss Koh.

Okay, i was in the art room, with the art club members, making my masterpiece. HAHA!

and coincidentally, it was the last day of ART CLUB, Miss koh called for Pizza, and i was entitled to a treat!

we spent like, 15mins deciding on what to buy, haha!

so we ordered :- One Singapura Special Pizza, Medium
- One Barbecue Pizza, Medium
- One Set of Chessy MeatBalls
- Two bottles of Drink.

GOBBLED the SRCUMPOLIOUS FOOD, and continued my work,

i was soon done, and it was also time to lock up the art room, cos ART CLUB, had ended as well.

cleaned up and packed up.

and on the way home.... Someone called.

" Hi, hold on arh. " - Person
"......" - Me
"Hello? Do you know who i am?" - Person
"Dexter?" - Me
"What? Who is DEXTER?!" - Person
"Then who are you?" - Me
"IM KEITH LAH!" - Person

after that, he asked me whether he could come over my my place, along with Nelson.

we Fooled around at the Park, and proceeded to my place.

at my house, fooled around, tuned his guitar, played music trying to make some retarded videos.

after that, dinner! Keith ate all the prawns.

dinner ended, and i cant remember what happened baths i think.

all i can remember next, is trying to get keith take off his contact lenses.

he was gonna sleep with them on! like, WTH?

after that, we watched pirates of the carribean 2.

fell asleep.

Oh did u know? KEITH SNORES!!!!!!!!

LIKE WTH?

anyways, they stayed till sunday. and yeah. haha!

not gonna write anymore!

cos theres too much to write!

READ THE ONE BELOW!!!!

joke?

2007-09-16T01:24:00.001+08:00

Investment bankers rule. Pilots too. Journalists and the like are almost as useless as chin hong.

Ever heard of a joke gone too far?

The guy who wrote this, his name is Tinaes.

He is PROBRABLY JOKING, but im not gonna care,

he thinks he like another guy, IMRAN, calling me protestant and all,

at least Imran stops lah,

this guy doesnt, like there was one time, he was at the benches outside my classroom,

" OH MY! PROTESTANT! " was the first thing he said,

so i tried being nice, but during the conversation, he would bring up "Protestants THIS, Protestants THAT"

LIKE WHAT THE HELL?

EVERYONE IS ALLOWED THEIR OWN CHOICE.

Okay, then theres IMRAN, the guy who started all this

Imran says the protestant thing, but at least he doesnt insult my work, i think tinaes once said, "theres a NORMAL style of work, and theres PROTESTANT style"

like in class, IMRAN won't say, "Protestants are stupid cos Chin Hong Failed His test"

but it seems that tinaes thinks hes smarter than me cos im protestant.

he can say that once in a while, about my work,

but not all the time. GETS FUCKING IRRITATING

EVEN IMRAN DOES NOT SAY THAT PROTESTANTS ARE STUPID!

back to the point, he said that im useless?

okay, i admit that my work he not as good as his.

but at least i think i have more GUTS than him, im physically tougher than him.

but who in the world who downgrade a FRIEND? [At least i treat him like one]

but still im saying this so that whoever sees this, will know about Tinaes, and how he will treat someone "STUPIDER" than him. Perhaps not, or at least someone like me.

so, the world is filled with arrogant "SMART JACKASSES"

Who are able to out-talk their fellows, but probrably never beat them totally.

KGJL

2007-09-11T20:01:00.000+08:00

Hmmm, people change dont they?

perhaps the only constant is your family.

i guess nice people are only nice when u see them everyday.

and one's family fits best.

manage

2007-09-10T01:04:00.000+08:00

okay, this post is again about SOCCER,

on saturday night, Sheng Kun, Me, Ben Neo, Yi Min, Sasi, Kenn Gwee, Kenn Soh, Shi Xuan, Clarrisa, Sheena(is that how u spell it?) and one more guy i cant remember, went to play soccer.

And this time. i lost my temper again, hey guys im real sorry, and thanks for the calls.

okay not lose temper, but we played really badly. im was frustrated, and at the same time, frustrating my teammates.

i think i shouldnt play soccer anymore, at least not for the time-being, cos everyone tells me to relax!

i dont like it, when i make the run. and you guys just want to try to by-pass the defenders yourself, maybe ure good, but most of the time, u can't. pass lah.

and im sorry again, and if u see this post, please forgive me for all the shouting that night.

anyways. after the match. me and sasi went to potong pasir, he told me to just enjoy and stop acting as if i was the captain, cos im not, i apologised. and i think he accepted it.

went to home and went online, talked to phoebe for awhile, kennenth and sheng kun called to talk to me, soon after phoebe called! just like she promised.

talked to like, 3am +. I HAVE to learn to listen to girls. otherwise, no one will date me! as least thats what mingting said," You and i can be good friends but not girlfriend and boyfriend. I want a person who will listen"haha!

but thats not gonna stop me, i do admit being a little to friendly with people, and of course not to those ASSes in my school.

anyways. people who played soccer that night. im really sorry, please accept my apologies

replies

2007-09-08T00:58:00.000+08:00

ok guys, seeing what u have replied, i have these.

1. i always wanna win, so maybe im a little hot headed.

2. like i said, if i can give as much effort as i can, why cant u?

3. please dont take "playing with noobs" or "injuries" as an excuse, cos when ure out there, no one cares, they just see how u play. so show them what you've got.

4. stupid mistakes are made by the opponent. not by my mates.

and lastly,

Some People say football is a matter of life and death.

i am extremely dissapointed at such an attitude,

i can easily assure you,

football is more than just that.

Star Wars?

2007-09-07T00:18:00.000+08:00

okay, im writing this cos im upset.

i think, if u do read my blog, i do lots of sports,

Table Tennis, Soccer, Badminton, swiming and all,

but when it comes to sports, i get serious real easy, and people kinda dun like it, cos when they dont play well, i get angry.

i mean c'mon lah, play seriously lah,

there was this time i was playing on grass, and we all know field soccer tires everyone out,

here i am, running the hell out of my lungs, and u guys just refuse to play well,

i win the ball in their half, and i pass, what does my friend do? he loses the ball immediately, okay, im not a real fantastic player, but i do my job. in my school, i suck, cos those guys are like, tons better.

and those, i make the run for u guys. but u guys just refuse to pass, as if u guys are damn good.

like wtf lah. team play! ok, i solo quite a bit, but not on field!?

u'll kill ureself lah.

anyways. if u disagree. please tell me

short post

2007-08-27T20:58:00.000+08:00

okay, nothing much

umm, i've been wondering about stuffs.

ONE, I think if theres still a concert next year, i'll play Haydn's Concerto for Trumpet Mvt 2 & 3.

TWO, I've asked Eleanor to be my pianist if it happens, but is it like damn Busted to ask her? after all thats happened?

THREE, Get back all Old Friendships.

okay, all of these, almost none look certain.

oh yeah, my studies are picking up, and i feel i would do better, if i had planned my time better during tests.

ah well, it does feel good to get things done.

and yeah, listening to the recording of POTC during concert. not that bad.

oh yeah. there was one day, me and jasper saw this girl called marilyn, i vaguely remember as the girl in charge of the water thingy at the primary few years back.

I told jasper, i think thats Ernest's friend marilyn, then he was like, MARILYN?!

then he kept on saying, Marilyn Manson maybe to bug her. haha

i thought he knew her, but he doesnt haha. so not all catholics know each other.

Bright and Light - Do it the Classical Way. RANDOM!

lazy

2007-08-23T21:04:00.001+08:00

okay, im lazy

NOW????

2007-08-17T21:53:00.000+08:00

OKAY!!!!

let us start with tuesday, after school, went for soccer, before heading to band room. we had to bring our instruments to VCH!

okay. on the bus. me and jia wei sat together, and just did nothing.

at VCH. ah. forget it .

i'll just jump to concert day...

concert day. the band waited for the audience to settle..... and once the time was right, the air flickered with anticipation, the emcees, mumbling their words,and the audience, waiting for them to finish. once they stopped. the air was still. and a small stout man walks out, takes a bow. the audience clap in acknowledgement. he steps onto the podium, and strikes!. the band bounces with the first note from "Danse Bacchanale". the beautiful, bright oboe plays, the hall ringing after each note. after the glorious solo, the soloist heaves a sigh of relief. and shines with a big smile.

the Stout man. signals the two horn players. the horns start the whole band with two bouncy notes that repeats 3 times. the clarinets come in, followed by the flutes. and then the clarinets take over, with the cornet occansionally prompting speed.

the band reaches a climax and races into a different phrase of anxiety.

oka, thats enough, and im not even into half the song!

the night was awesome. all the songs was played well!

and even Mr Lin told me the trumpets played well.

the awesomeness is unexplainable. its just dam good. okay. i got lots of stuffs. and here are some pics

my family..

Joe. me and irene

Kai yuan, me and bee hui

June , me and Phoebe

CHURCH MATES!!!!! THANKS FOR BEING HERE!

Elijah, Jaron, me and Yi Wei "sup?"

KHAIRUL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! URE THE BEST!!!!!!!!!! AND I MEAN IT!!!!!!

and theres everyone!

Sec 3 First clarinet and Sec 3 First Trumpet

i just like this picture

and thats for u!

Ricardo. me and breyann, looking good?

Chun Kiat and me!

clarification

2007-08-13T19:23:00.001+08:00

guys. i'd like to clarify something.

the previous posts about nathanael, were written in anger so it maybe be a little harsh.

nathanael is a nice guy, it was just a small misunderstanding that we have cleared up.

a truly faithful person and one i can look up to.

and if u guys think he is an asshole. i will put a stick up yours, so those who dislike nathanael please understand he is a REALLY NICE GUY.

and i will clear the part about nathanael on the 13th of august at 7.30pm.

thanks

fgh

2007-08-12T16:36:00.000+08:00

Currently Listening to " The Battle Of Jericho"

starts with a slow opener with the clarinets and euphoniums.

slowly moves into the actual battle itself with the the brasses blasting.

then, a wierd small medley, as if for dances, linking it to " victory ", a slow part.

after victory will reach a CLIMAX, with the horns leading the band. and when. a sudden change in yet another wierd dance

sax, flute and clarinets playing it. leading the brasses.

the next phrase is held by the lower brasses. showing of the poweress of the band and the army.

a oboe solo arrives next.

the trumpets come in with POWER! then. the whole song slows to signal the ending of the song.

the clarinets and brasses leading the band.

solo flute comes in....

clarinet.....

oboe....
the horns and euphoniums...

the band plays a comfortable chord. and ends with an echo.

cool? haha

okay.

went to church after band prac. which was fine.

at church, my cell had extra members! woohoo.

haha. okay. after church, Dexter, Kenn Gwee, Kenn Soh, Clarissa, Ming Ting and I went for dinner. Kenn Gwee and Ming Ting got Clarissa Chocolates as an extremely belated birthday gift. haha

after that, clarrisa had to go home. and the rest of us went back to church instead to study. i read my " Exorcist, The Beginning " book. which is not really that interesting so far. i guess i'll have to read it twice.

at church. they studied while i read my book. then i saw dexter's videos. haha

helped Ming Ting with " To Kill A Mockingbird "

yeap.

after that i left to meet my family for a movie. " 881 ". quite nice

haha.

okay. i shall leave the computer for my sister. bye!

what the?

2007-08-06T23:03:00.000+08:00

haha. i just realised what is "Skinny Dipping".

which conviently means swimming naked. haha

Funn Huh? haha.

oh yeah. there was once Silas and i were talking about Hawaii, where he came from.

he was like. at my home there, people go topless, and somethings naked! haha

then i was like, " How much is the trip to Honolulu, and how long?"

haha. but of course, im just kidding. haha

JAPANESE GUESTS IN MY CLASS!

and one of them stays at Nelson's home. which is SUPER NEAR ME! WOOHOO.

haha. Again. im kidding. but he is my neighbour.

however. the HOTTEST girl of the group stays with keith. haha. Lucky Bro.

i mean she was like. SUPER HOT! haha okay. im bring a little over now.. okay

oh you know something?

before recess. i walked the guests down, (I was actually trying to get close to them Not in the sIcK way.)

so i got the chance to talk to the Hottest girl. whom i have no idea what is her name.

guess what she asked..............
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"Do you have a girlfriend?"

WHAT THE???

i was busy trying to go through my mind for answers....

as well as... trying to go through her's

then i said....

" er... u can say yes. but, not really.... er no"

she prolly never heard the words in bold.

Yes being the Eleanor + Adeline part. whom i have never mentioned on my blog.

No:

-Being Eleanor and i are cooling down(None of you knew i had a Girlfriend right?)
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-Adeline confessing her crush to me.( which was totally uncalled for cos' i quite disliked her)

but she(Japanese guest) prolly heard the No part only. they aren't very good at English.

but in any case. it was a wierd question. and i think she prolly thinks im a DORK!

ah. enough. THERES BAND TMRW!

and we are playing POTC!

WOOHOO!

PY

2007-08-05T21:43:00.000+08:00

okay.

Lets start with this morning.

i woke up at 9am! which is a good thing cos, i slept at 12 last night...

i lazed around untill like 10.55, which is not good cos i then rushed to church.

church now is really special, cos im worshipping god like nobody's business. i like it that way!

the reason is that i missed church the whole of the June holidays. so. i really missed out alot. even church camp. where everyone got something special out of it.. but anyways. i couldn't go cos my mom will never allow!

okay. after service, me, gabriel and my suppoused cell member whose name is timothy went to heartland mall, where we saw Monfort Military band.

they played 5 songs. out of which. i can only remember 4.

-Sesame Street
-The Incredibles
-Riverdance
-Pirates Of The Caribbean

these four. all of which was enjoyable.

i left after that and got home. where i prepared to go for PhilYouth's Concert.

okay.

Met Adeline at SCH. she was wearing make-up.

i generally don't like girls who wear make up for small matters.

this is just a concert mah.

she was a LITTLE ah lian

okay. the concert was fanstatic. Mr. Glosz is REALLY GOOD!

but i think Mr Lin is abit better cos of experience

anyways. the concert was EXTREMELY ENJOYABLE!

MR GLOSZ! HE IS DAMN COOL!

haha, but loyalty to MR Lin Still!

after the concert. Ade and I went to eat at Vivo. haha.

she ordered some korean thingy that was really spicy. and i ordered vegetable and rice for the peranakan stall at food republic.

and the table beside mine.

there was a REALLY HOT girl!

we stared at each other a few times. and i smiled once. haha
but she was shy and just looked at me. haha

i then went home. didnt fetch Ade home cos she lived Far Too Far.

and im not conducting for this year's concert anymore.. why?

cos the song which im conducting. " I Need To Be In Love "

is Linked up with " Stayin' Alive "

which is dam heavy on trumpets. and therefore, MR Chan asked me whether i should conduct or play?

i decided to play. cos i couldnt let Terence play alone right?

and Nathanael took my place.

anyways. i think that is enough. bye!

StaBAT

2007-08-02T21:24:00.000+08:00

okay. the title has nothing to do with my post.

firstly. School was alright... Cos' on Thursdays, there is PE!

okay. yeah. after school, i went to catch SHILTON, which was consisted of Last Year's 3E6 class members.. the class im in now...

they played -Dani California ,by Red Hot Chilli Peppers.
-Can't Stop ,by Red Hot Chilli Peppers
-Some John Mayer Song. haha

okay. the performance was good. but the vocals couldnt be heard. dont know why though.

okay. then at band. i tried out the FrugelHorn. which is like a Trumpet + Horn

therefore it creates a Big Trumpet Sound, but not as Bright and a Mellow Horn Tone.

cool? haha

i then took the junior band. which was almost crappy... like.. WTF?

okay. after band. i had to choose 4 junoirs to DANCE!? haha

okay.

as u all know. my band is having a concert on the 15th. and we are playing STAYIN" ALIVE.

so 4 CUTE? junoirs will be dancing.. and i have to Choreograph( correct? ) the dance.

yeah. after that. dinner...

btw, im fasting for 40 Days since this monday.

i actually started 2 weeks ago. but i kept breaking it without me knowing.. so yeah

BTW, im fasting meat.

haha. well i think thats enough.

i gotta go call adeline

50

2007-08-01T21:48:00.000+08:00

WOOHOO!

my 50th post.

okay. im listening to

Orient Express ,By Philip Sparke.

the same composer of Hanover Festival. Saint Gabriel's Choice Piece for 2007 SYF!

okay. today was quite GOOD! in school at least.

after school. while waiting for band room to open, i went to play soccer. btw. i left my file in the Band room. so im collecting it.

NO! im NOT a Band GEEK!

okay. i was wearing my track shoes. and we all know that if u play in track shoes. the balls that take off from our feet are never going to fly.

and as we kick. we look like COO COO BIRDS! YAY!

therefore i took out my shoes..... which was BAD!!!!!!!!!!

i played reasonably well. running everywhere.

as soon. small blisters began to develop.....

after a while... my SKIN TORE!

WITHOUT BLISTERS!

the pain was CRAZY! i could see my flesh... and when one touches one's flesh.. its DAMN ITCHY...

but its healed now. as in. the skin is stuck to my flesh.. i guess that counts as healed

like WTH??!!

then i picked up my file from band room. which was on the 4th floor, i jumped slowly, hopping on one foot, allt he way up.

picked up my file. and then i called my mom to pick me up. as she has FORGOTTEN!

haha.

after tuition.. there was this like MAD guy, he kept looking at either :

My Nametag.

Or

My Mcflurry.

i just stood there. ACTING ALL COOL. i smiled at him, as a gesture.

then he said... "Ni Shuai". which means... " You Handsome"

LIKE WTH!!!!!!!

I'm Handsome?? yeah.. right.

so i replied without looking at the crazy guy. Trying my best not to freak out and at the same time, still trying to act Calm and Cool... i was like...

" damn it. if he touches me. im gonna walop him real hard. "

so. i ACTED COOL and in my heart. i was like... "WHEN IS THE BUS GOING TO ARRIVE!!!??
OKAY, i'll thake the next bus anyway just to get away...."

THANK GOD it was 136. the one i was suppoused to take!
WOOHOO!. and the RETARDED fella didnt come along!

after that. i reached kovan station and walked to my bus stop and took the bus home.

THE END!

and im sorry for what i've done.. im sorry.

hello

2007-07-27T22:01:00.000+08:00

okay. a small update.

actually. nothing much.

oh yeah. im conducting the band! WOO HEE! haha

i think i'll try to bring the camera along to bad tmrw and take some pics. haha YAY!

22july

2007-07-22T20:00:00.000+08:00

hellos.

right now, im listening to overture jubiloso. nice song, its by Alfred Reed. played by Tokyo Kosei Wind Orchestra.

TKWO, one of the best bands in the world, and arguably the best in Asia, with a Smooth and nice sound. haha

clean and up to standard, YAY! haha

okay. today, i basically did nothing, i went to play soccer and came back. my sister had a party.

and my sore throat is almost healed! haha

okay lah. i'll post more next time. and MR Stanley still hasnt sent me the pics

today

2007-07-21T17:22:00.000+08:00

Well. its been like 2 weeks since i blogged. haha

okay. was at a RHD celebration at my school.

it started on thursday. after band, i went to the room to help out the peranakan guys.

everything was in a mess haha. but anyway. as things continued, it became better and better.

in the evening, we all assembled to get dinner.

chan asked me to call Macs for an order of 80 burgers and cokes. haha

the kitchen said it was far too much and it had to be cancelled. instead Peter and Joseph went to get dinner. chicken rice and all.

for 80+ people.

haha

around like 9pm+ my group thought that we should all stayover in school.

and so we did. i called my mom and she said it was okay. haha. wierd!

i went home to take my stuffs and came back. at arnd 11+ the room was almost done. so i went to help the malay and indian room.

late in the night, arnd 2am+ the guys went for night soccer. i didnt go. was still sick.

me and jason listened to 1812 on imeem instead, and watched comedy videos on youtube.

did stuffs on the room again and helped others.

slept at 4am+ haha. woke up at 7am.

and MISS CHAN came.

she saw that i had a sore throat and gave me

PEI PA KAO!

wah... that helped alot.

and then anrd 715. students came. saw our stuffs.

i got ready for the band perfomance. and yeah.

im too lazy to say anymore. haha

17th july

2007-07-17T19:02:00.000+08:00

NEW SKIN!

NICE? It so bright and vibrant!

thanks to KHAIRUL ANWAR BIN OTHMAN. the greatest guy on the face of the planet.

thanks man.

he even helped me to do my profile! haha

i really like this!

haha
thanks man..

truly.

and im not so sick no more

school tmrw i guess

16 july

2007-07-16T18:10:00.000+08:00

sick.

and i mean seriously.

and also. im sick of this blog skin. gonna change it soon.

khairul. help me?

haha.

anyways. im hungry. so im gonna eat. but let me get u guys a nice song

ahh. the billboard charts are so old. all the songs have been heard before.

i think falloutboy is nice.

time

2007-07-11T22:19:00.000+08:00

ah. time.

when do we really find time?

and is love a waste of time or something else?

life is such a rush! theres almost no time for anything!

soccer? Even to swim?

im always afraid i'd fall behind time.

maybe im saying all this crap cause i dont have the time.

And eleanor. i can understand. and im real sorry.

why no time? cause of band. im home at like what? 6.30?

walk to Lorong Liew Lian, walk to Bus stop, take 53. stop at PLMGS. and walk home

by then, im so worn out. if i could come home early. i'd have an afternoon nap.
ahh HOW NICE!

And since im at band. OUR CONCERT!

RESONANCE

Victoria Concert Hall
15 August
1930 hrs.

Highlights:

Danse Bacchanale
From Samson et Daliah.

Symphonic Suite, Miss Saigon

and if u ask me. i'd rather slack off all day and PERHAPS study. this way i'd have more time.

ah forget it.

khai! my solo ..... okay?`

haha

10 july

2007-07-10T19:11:00.001+08:00

Well. i finally found time to blog. okay. lets start.

school as usual. nothing much. but im starting to sleep in class. lol.
no matter how early i sleep. i still doze off!

Ah. no matter. after that BAND! haha. i got to conduct today cos Mr Lin wasnt arnd. but of course the easy songs.

Band
Band
Band
Band

then go home. simple? haha

nothing much. but we "taupok"ed micheal was it was his bdae.

and oh yeah. the percussionists were watching porn during band...

"Sir! But its Art!"

like WTH?

and that pretty much sums it up.

and i jumped to neoyun's blog.

She and wilson are CLOSE!

haha

Madness and chaos.

2007-07-04T23:20:00.001+08:00

haha. i just found

"The Flight of the Bumblebee"

I never knew it was written by Tchaikovsky

Tchaikovsky, has finally become my Favourite Composer! haha

the past times

2007-07-01T23:39:00.000+08:00

okay. alot has happened for me since the holidays.

In school i have a new teacher! Mr Ivan Ng. nice guy. and i think a good teacher. he is replacing Ms Sumitha. in History and as a Co-Form Teacher.

then i rushed through my Peranakan Project. It was damn cool lah. Peranakans are like awesome man, i wish i was a peranakan. the stuffs i learn from the project really left me in awe.

Oh yeah. abigail's birthday was arnd the corner. so i wanted to get her a gift. me and jaron contemplated over a bracelet, but in the end. other factors made me feel a card would be better.

and i was gonna go to the National Stadium's closing ceremony on saturday. but jaron told me to go for church instead. well yeah. i alr bought the ticket u noe?! but still i went to church. some how. whatever happened(not gonna tell you cos' its not really that nice) got bigger and yeah. i got counselled by faith, my Cell Leader. but apart from that. church was having "chill out" that day. so. it was more games.

today. i didnt go to church. cos of the "so-called' problem. maybe im making a mountain out of an molehill. well. i really dont know what to do. so yeah.
after that. arnd 3+ andrew asked me to go for soccer.

we played at the soccer court futher away from church. and there were a couple of mattz making a fool of themselves. esp. one Fat kid . felt like beating him up. talk all the crap. and even called us dogs. Like WTF? i mean its not their court what so if we dont play with them. then too bad lah. i mean andrew didnt wanted to the rest was okay. i came late. so i had no say.

we left after awhile and talked bout what we would do if we really whacked them. all the throw pork all. lol.

we went to church and set-up court. moved the barricades and played soccer. we beat zack and all the first round 10-5. then the secnod was dam sad. we slack like hell and lost. the last ball was damn sad. cos i worked hard to win the ball back. but some how. the other team got it and won. sian. at arnd six. i was suppoussed to meet khai. but didnt. sorry khai!

then i heard andrew on the phone. and got quite dissapointed. though i may not be in any position to be.(if this doesnt make sense to u . just skip it.)

went for dinner with dex after that. and talk bout stuff. headed to heartland and looked at bossini. theres a trumpet shirt i wanna buy. haha

then we went to popular and saw some wierd answering ball thingy. haha. me a dex played with it and then. we were asked to leave ocs they were closing.

went to the supermarket and walked arnd. and then left for home.

reached home. bathed and now im blogging.

all this is really brief. so just bear with it. i'll try to go into details next time

Malaysia

2007-06-20T02:13:00.000+08:00

okay.

malaysia.... TRULY ASIA!

oh please thats so wrong.

okay. the people there are LAZY! this maybe a wrong view. but i think im correct in my case.

Act 1 : PART 1 -Bus ride.

i was actually looking forward to the bus ride. cos i didnt sleep the night before. and i made sure i didnt. cos i wanted to sleep during the ride. haha. i played pokemon crystal all night.

the next day, met the others at some golden mile place in beach road and waited for the bus. i tot it would be the double decker kind but it was the normal type. quite disspointed. lol

on the bus. nothing much happened. went into the customs and the normal procedures.
after that. i got a bit of sleep and i as i slept, i put my feet on my glasses. i woke up to find the screw falling out. DAM. but it was close to the restpoint and i set out to find a screwdriver.

i approached many shops. most of them pointed me to the handphone shop but i knew they just didnt wanna entertain me.

so i went for the hp shop. the uncle was an asshole. i asked if he could just help me screw it back. but he said... NONO!

idoit...

however one of the shops did help me. a cd shop auntie helped me .. i was so happy!.

she used a pen-knife to screw it in......hehe

okay. back on the ride. i slept for awhile and woke up. AND DRANK SOME water. and soon. somehow. my bladder was full and i just couldnt sleep. i stared out the window for 2 HRS!!!!!

finally we reached a TANDAS. I keluar-ED and went to pee. after that. nothing much after that.

Act 1 : PART 2 -Genting

reached genting. and talked with my cousins. haha

we got tickets for ocean's 13 and just lazed around. we went to RIPLEY'S believe it or not display and saw lots of stuff. didnt take pics though. quite cool. but im not gonna write down he details.

Act 1 : PART 3 -lunch

after that we had KENNY ROGERS. it was SOOOOOOOOOO SICK!

first we had COLD CHICKEN.

and MY DRINK HAD A COCKROACH INSIDE!

AND THE MASHED POTATOES WERE WIERD

THE RICE WAS SUPER DISGUSTING! like as if left there for years!

THE VEGGIE SALAD WAS SICK AS WELL.

AND AS WE LEFT. THE BILL HAD A PROBLEM.. SO SICKENING

after that. ARCADE! didnt play much. and even slept there. did i tell u? i couldnt sleep in the bus.

Act 1 : PART 4 -night

went for dinner, where everyone waited for my mom... so embarrasing

after that slacked in the hotel and help Valerie think of her script. and later went for ocean's 13.and then hitt-ED the sack. boring huh?

haha

Act 2 : PART 1 -morning.

woken up by my sister and then bathed. met my cousins and we went to the theme park. i was quite tired cos my sister woke me up rather early. so i was quite silent.

the roller-coasters have no more kick... not gonna put much details here too. cos all of u guys must have been to genting before right?

Act 2 : PART 2 -afternoon

we then bought tickets to MOTION MASTER 4D. it was so different compared to the previous ones so boring.lol

and i forgot what we did for the rest of the afternoon i think was the theme park.
and then had dinner.

Act 2 : PART 3 -dinner

had pizza hut for dinner and then when for roller-coasters again. boring? haha

i think i'd rather not talk anymore about the holiday... cos it was quite boring. and its taking up to much space.

SORRY KHAIRUL!
u can ask me though. and call me

home

2007-06-11T17:38:00.000+08:00

okay. lets start with saturday morning.

we woke up at about 11+ and had mac's for breakfast.

mac's is getting so DAMN DISGUSTING. i've had it for so many days in a row.

i guess i can finally grow fat?

oh. and i was wearing a damn big shirt that was like my pyjamas.

and i wore that to katong S.C. i looked like some stupid little kid.

and we were playing Pool. i won one game. out of many. AND IM SUPER TYCO!

after that, went lan gaming. we were suppoused to play DotA. but in the end. whatever game that they entered. i couldn't and Vice Versa.

therefore i played Star Wars Clone Wars. some first person shooter that was dam cool.

after lan gaming. we went for dinner and headed for orchard road.

and i was wearing the PYJAMAS so. i looked ridiculous.

played at the arcade at cine leisure. and slacked. then went to BK and slacked as well. JJ and Edwin was Suanning a couple. who brought toilet paper into BK and didnt order anything!

well. im not gonna put anymore things in. haha

jj's bdae.

2007-06-10T00:56:00.000+08:00

okay. woke up at like. 12+ ?

thats so retarded. haha.

after that. did some work. and er. slacked. im becoming lazy again.

and oh yeah.the scientists found new animals. so. yeah.
more animals to conserve.

then. when to jj's bdae at bin's place.

bin's son, issac. is super cute!

then ezra, enoch came. enoch is really naughty. haha

ezra was like dam blur. ask him sing the bear song. he sang some apple song! haha.

after that. talk arounf and yeah. relaxed.

drank A LITTLE!

and now. im at jj place.
oh yeah. i drank mutton soup as well. dam nice.

super tasty.

OH! and ice jelly cocktail!

and now im at jj house blogging. sian.

oh i think jj has a girlfriend. haha

la la la la

2007-06-08T21:21:00.000+08:00

OKAY. today's band was abit not so boring. cos... SHANNON IS BACK!

Practised the repertiore and i seriuosly believe these grade 6 songs are difficult only on the woodwind instruments.

during band. me and shannon and nigel made quite some jokes haha.

OH! and we can finally play STAYIN' ALIVE.

stupid Jazz Song. Must feel the beat. LOL

after band. i when to pick up my No. 12 JERSEY!

i think i've got to get a camera phone. and take pics and post it on the blog soon!

then i slept. AGAIN! haha.

nothing esle happened to yeah.

er. bye?

No.12
No.12
No.12
No.12
No.12
No.12

tired training

2007-06-07T18:56:00.000+08:00

Stupid band.

woke up early today for band. AGAIN! im getting Quite sick of waking up so early. but i do enjoy band.

okay. we did the Deng Lu Jun songs. and after that. Miss Saigon

Saigon was quite alright. Terence was here so the high notes was no problem. i broke down after mr. Lin repeated the Last chord, L. the third time.

Danse was even better. Mr Lin praised me for my technique. and says that i should practice more. i will become better. and the truth was on tuesday and wednesday. i did practise them! so, the results did show.

okay. after practice. marvin fell the whole squad in. and Pumped us 20. for lack of musicianship. by the way. he has to do twice. therefore marvin +40.

after that the pumped percussion, clarinets and trumpets another 10 for talking during band. marvin +20. therefore marvin +40, +20

he pumped colin 10. for saying something i think. marvin +20 and therefore
Marvin +40, +20, +20

after that. 30 for me for not setting up a good example as an RO. marvin +60
therefore Marvin +40, +20, +20, +60

after that. we had to do another 10 "proper ones". Marvin +20
therefore Marvin +40, +20, +20, +60, +20

twenty for all late comers. he was late. so 20 for himself. and another 40 for pumping us. Marvin +20, +40. but he did his twenty. so Marvin +20, +40, -20

therefore Marvin +40, +20, +20, +60, +20, +40

then Omar another 5 For moving in the squad. Marvin +10

therefore Marvin +40, +20, +20, +60, +20, +40, +10.

so. can u guys tell me how much that adds up to?

After that. i asked Marvin why he havent done his pumping. he tells me that he doesnt have to do.

okay. i "believed" him

Bloody hell. who the FUCK he think he is? im okay with my punishment. although JK said its of no need. so why doesnt he do his? and when i questioned him? he says he doesnt have to. and when i argue with him. he cowardly goes off. BASTARD.

im telling u.

Total Power Courrupts Totally.

i do respect marvin. and i carried out my punishments.

but if tmrw he does not do the number of pumpings he is suppoussed to.

I'm gonna tell the squad not to conform to him unless he does his first.

at Macs. i bought a Happy Meal! haha i finished the fries and milo. and i got a toy!
i also bought a Mcnuggets meal and finished the fries. gosh. i feel too heaty.

i went home and practised for 1/2 an hour and then slept. im awake now. and blogging. my life is so boring. haha.

okay. im done

Beethoven's Ninth Symphony.

2007-06-06T20:45:00.000+08:00

The World's Most Famous Music composer and his most accomplished work.

Beethoven's 9th Symphony.
Ode To Joy

Parched Lips

2007-06-05T22:50:00.000+08:00

Lets see.

Band in the morning. today's practice wasnt that bad.

we played pop songs as well as danse and miss saigon.

today's miss saigon and danse wasnt as bad as yesterdays.

not much details. just practise and practise. fun though.

okay, nigel and i went to macs and had lunch. i could only finish the shaker fries and had no chance to finish my McSpicy.

the band is also in pieces. nobody now wants any responsiblity. cos its damn tiring. esp the band camp.

came home and teng helped me with my maths corrections practised danse again and made sure i was familiar with the fingerings.

i fell asleep and yeah.

woke up. did some work and now im blogging.

life's boring. I can't wait for tmrw though.

i'll try to finish my work in the morning and practise miss saigon in the afternoon.

Band?

Thats so Not suppoussed to be me

04 June.

2007-06-04T16:46:00.000+08:00

Back From band AGAIN.

okay. band was quite crappy.

we played Danse Bachannale and Miss Saigon.

played badly. especially Miss Saigon.

oh yeah. aloysius is AN ASSHOLE.

The committee was thinking of giving up my post. Damnit. then u know what aloysius said?

"BREYANN LAH! BREYANN CAN WHAT"

im not saying breyann can or not. but aloysius is a bloody coward who only cares about himself.

he buys people over. he gave Juan ken Money quite a few times and gave jason some maple card. and used to treat people to free dinner.

im not saying that is bad. but i believe he does that to gain favour. and im not saying he is a bad person. but the way he talks is damn irritating. and he can only bully juniors.

If u can read this. and u noe aloysius. think about him again.

im not gonna give u guys a clear cut picture. but u can see for ureself.

okay. we went to macs and ate lunch.

jeremy had some spirit in his room last night and couldn't sleep. he says he has been experiencing it since young. haiz.

he has also been over-exerting himself. practising aways. well thats what u need for a musician.

and now im home.

i feel damn heaty. prolly cos of the shaker fries. damn. think im sick. not enough sleep too.

well im done. i'll try to make another post tonight.

Still waters

2007-06-03T15:19:00.000+08:00

Okay. Spent Last night talking to Eleanor. We're getting closer and closer. haha

okay. woke up at 1! can u believe that? Took Breakfast and watched Star Wars VI. LOL

the graphics were crap but u cant blame them.

did nothing much. and practised alittle bit of Danse Bacchanale again.

and thats about it . going to play soccer!

with guys Twice my age.

Break a leg? seems ironic. haha

alright i'll go now.

-The Pursuit Of Happiness